Tuesday, January 20, 2009

When In Need

Waaahh...lama tak duk depan pc...sori korang...teruk kena migraine 2-3 hari ni..yelah orang ni kalu dah nak masuk separuh abad ni mulalah macam2 penyakit datang menyerang...masa muda2 bergetah dulu takde pulak penyakit2 ni semua..koser nihhh...

So nak ceritanya pasal lawatan sambil balajar ke spital kerajaan tadi...sanggup ni langgar pantang larang sendiri on pc semata2 nak mengumpat & mengutuk spital kerajaan...pagi semalam dah pegi klinik sebab migraine..sehari sebelum tu memang dah kena masa tengah hari so terus balik rumah ala2 koma tak sedar diri atas katil..tak sedar diri ke tak sedarkan diri ni..hiks..sempat tu..

Pastu pagi semalam menda tu menyerang lagi kat opis...terpaksa kacau boss tengah meeting cakap nak pegi klinik..boss pun buat muka tak koser...mesti dia ingat aku ni berpenyakit...baru jer tukar sini dah macam2 penyakit..dah lah kena marah kat Dr. Wee tu sebab dia cakap aku tak makan ubat masa kena migraine...ingat je Dr. Wee kisah zaman dahulu kala tu..

So aku balik rumah terus ala2 koma lagi atas katil..

Pagi tadi aku rasa macam dah ok jer..so pegi ler keja..tapi ntah macam mana penyakit tu datang lagi...kalu aku kena menda nih vision jadi makin lama makin kecik, ada spots semua...nampak tak nampak jer..kadang nampak macam berair je pandangan pastu kepala tu tak usah cakap ler...aku ingat nak tahan jer sakit tuh lagipun ubat pun dah makan ..tapi sampai tengah hari tak boleh jadi jugak..gelap jer pandangan ni..so aku ingat nak pegi spital kerajaan ler sebab kawan aku cakap kalu pegi spital kerajaan dia orang check darah semua..so fikir..why not..second opinion kan..mana tau ubat dia orang lagi berkesan kan..so pegilah aku spital kerajaan selepas berkurun2 tak mendapatkan rawatan kat situ..

So lepas tunggu giliran yang semestinya sampai berjanggut...aku cakaplah masalah aku kat doktor tu..boleh dia cakap ni semua pasal spek yang aku pakai...power spek tak betullah...aku pakai sesuka hati akulah, tak pakai sepanjang masa ler..suka hati je tuduh aku..malas aku nak bagitau dia aku pakai contact lense sebenarnya..2-3 hari ni je pakai spek sebab leceh sakit kepala ni..mulalah macam2 dia cakap pasal spek aku nih..aku cakap takde kaitan dengan power spek ler tapi dia terus suh aku pegi bilik tempat check vision..ok lah..aku ikut je..

Pastu lepas check vision, aku masuk jumpa doktor ni balik. Dia heran naper power spek tu ok..erkk...whatever..

Pastu aku pun cakap ler aku dah jumpa Dr. Wee ni sebelum ni and tunjukkan ubat2 dia tapi tak berkesan..sebab aku nak jalan pun macam nak rebah jer..dia tengok ubat2 tu tapi tak tau apa jenis ubat tu..and then get this..she got out a textbook! At least aku rasa ler buku teks..heheh..mulalah membelek satu2 halaman..lama wehhh..pastu tak jumpa..apalah yang dia cari...pastu dia pegi bilik sebelah..lama tu masuk balik..ambik balik buku tadi..belek2 lagi..and then "HAH! dah jumpa nama ubat tuh!!!" Muahahahahahahahahah...

Gitulah kisahnya...lepas jumpa doktor spital kerajaan ni tak payah makan ubat pun terus baik sendiri..serius..tak tipu..dalam keadaan tengah teruk tadi tiba2 jadi baik lepas sepetang bersama doktor tu..balik tumah tadi aku rasa cergas jer..and tadi aku baru makan ubat Dr. Wee tu..hiks..

*citer ni ditulis tanpa sebarang editing..kalu tak paham buat2 ler paham..heheh..

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Grief

Sorry guys, just don't feel like writing anything. My problems and my everyday life are nothing compared to the heartbreaking situation in Gaza.

I can't read the papers without crying...can't watch the news without weeping...even though my tears are worthless, I just can't help feeling the pain...

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Lesu

Sooo..what to write...macam ada mental block pulak. Eh macam ler aku nih penulis siap ada mental block bagai nih... I can be quite delusional sometimes...heheh. Well, for what its worth, I do have two books under my belt...macam tak percaya kan...even though ai bukan ler penulisnya, cuma menterjemah isi kandungnya sahaja...at least ada jugak nama yang vogue lagi vass ni kat buku tu kan...wahhh...tetiba je masuk bakul angkat sendiri nihhhh...pehal lak nih...heheh...or maybe since there's nothing exciting or happening enough in my life right now for me to blog so terpaksa ler citer kisah yang berlaku setengah abad yang lalu...hahh tu jelah citernyer...koser buang masa syok sendiri kan...heh..

Sebenarnya minggu nih lesu jer memalam...asal malam mesti tak larat...asal tak larat mesti memalam...muahaha...sebenarnya bukan apa...semenjak dua menjak ni manjang jer tak berapa nak sihat...tapi yg herannya siang ok jer...boleh jer berkerja dengan daddy kasi tapi biler malam jer terus lemah longlai...kisahnya sekarang ni tak lalu nak makan pagi..tengah hari baru rasa lapar tapi masa tu segala angin dah masuk so kenalah gastrik sampai malam...hari2 macam nih...tapi yang herannya berat tak turun2 pulak...heheh...

Begitu ler citernyer...tak syok kan korang nak baca...internet pun dah jarang bukak sekarang...setakat check email and berhai2 & bye2 ngan pepari barang seminit dua dan jawab komen dan chat yang konstruktif dan membina daripada peminat2 kat blog ni...muahaha...

Eh satu lagi nampak gayanya macam nak kena beli notebook jer...setakat ni ai ada pc sajorkkkk...keja sekarang nih rasanya memang sangat2 memerlukan notebook/laptop nih...nak kena survey dululah...beli yg murah2 jer...ai ni bukannya berduit macam si Sarah yg ada collection laptop yg canggih2 gitew...heheh...ok ler korang...nak kena baring2 nih...sib baik kat tganu besok dah tak keja kekdahnyer...

P/s: I'm a woman hoccay..bukan sesuatuh..muahaha..

Saturday, January 3, 2009

A Whole New World




It has been raining non-stop these few days
And I love it
Ever since I was a kid I was fascinated by the rain
by the sound of the rain
by the drops of the rain
For me, rain represents everything good in my life

And my life is changing
Is it for the better?
Only time will tell
The new day is rising
and I just can't wait...

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy New Year Everybody!



So here I was rushing like mad to complete the work to be submitted tomorrow. Sheeshh...everybody is celebrating and I'm stuck at home in front of the pc...eh jap..bukan tetiap malam ke duk depan pc...the difference is tonight I have some job to do and the other nights I cuma duk buang masa...muahaha...adatlah manusia..ada keja sket mulalah nak mengomel...and thankfully I managed to complete everything and still got time to update this blog...what with streamyx yang macam *toot nih...I know that's its nothing new with streamyx but I thought they said everthing will be ok by today!

Oh..thanks to those who sms me just now...Happy new year to you too!

And my resolutions for the new year are:

1. To lose at least SOME weight..if not a lot at least some lahh..heheh..

2. To be a better person..cliche yang amat tapi so what..this is MY resolution kannn..menjadi rakyat malaysia yang gemilang, cemerlang dan terbilang..ekekeke...but seriously, I do know my shortcomings and I hope I can overcome them..

3. To control my spending and have more savings...kann Sarah...

So Happy New Year everyone! And to Pepari, angels and my readers, (ada ke?..hiks..) I leave you with this beautiful poem by Joanna Fuchs:

New Year’s Reflections

Looking back on the months gone by,
As a new year starts and an old one ends,
We contemplate what brought us joy,
And we think of our loved ones and our friends.

Recalling all the happy times,
Remembering how they enriched our lives
We reflect upon who really counts,
As the fresh and bright new year arrives.

And when I ponder those who do,
I immediately think of you.