Takde Life

Bila boleh tidur nihhhh

2011-12-30T00:15:00.002+08:00

Dah sebulan lebih susah nak lelap..patutnya musim hujan ni senang jer nak tidur but pukul 3-4 pagi still tak boleh tidur...adeh...kadang ada malam langsung tak boleh tidur...macam mana ni...uwaaaaa

Happy!

2011-12-25T00:24:00.006+08:00

If someone were to ask me what my new year resolution is, I would say, I just want to be happy!

well hello there

2011-12-25T00:05:00.002+08:00

Let's see here whether I still remember how to update my blog after leaving it for soooo long...nearly a year, yes, a year...ok here goes...

Edited:

It works!

Well, it seemed at that time that I won't but I actually miss my blog especially lately when I need a place to rant. And I don't want to use my facebook for that since my real life friends are there and twitter is not enough heheh, and, maybe I do need this blog as my health seemed to be deterioting this year, and my english, too. So here's hoping I'll be updating my blog more after this...

Nobody knows

2011-02-16T21:21:00.004+08:00

I shouldn't have let myself think...that's how I've survived all this while...by not letting myself think...and now that I am I can't seem to shake myself out of it...I've been having headache and migraine because of this, losing sleep because of this...and so again I need my blog as a place to ease my pain...since I can never talk about this...and I don't know how...and I don't have anyone to tell anyway...

Patah hatiku
Membawa derita
Merajuklah diri
Merajuk diri
Tak tentu haluan

Patah hati ku
Membawa derita
Merajuklah diri
Merajuk diri tak tentu haluan

I've had It

2010-11-09T14:56:00.005+08:00

Akhirnya aku meletup hari ni...some people can be real b****h...bila ada menda yang tak puas hati mengamuk, bila nak marah sound orang macam org giler...tak pandai nak jaga perasaan orang lain...mentang2lah kita ni bukan jenis yg suka membalas kata2 orang senang jer orang nak buli kita tapi kali ni memang tak tahan...

Kisahnya aku baru masuk balik keja minggu ni pastu kena sound sebab keja tak beres katanya...well hello, aku tak datang keja seminggu ada sebab, bukan saja2...yelah menda tak kena kat ko...bukan mak ko yang meninggal senanglah ko nak melenting mengamuk macam orang giler...minggu sebelum tu pun aku on off keja sebab arwah mak aku nazak apa ko ni tak faham ke...boss tak bising pun ko tu apa hal...hari ni dia buat lagi and suddenly I had it...aku menjawab and berlakulah perang dunia ketiga but aku lari tempat lain lepas menjawab tu...aku ni penakut sebenarnya dan bukan jenis yang bising2...dia ikut aku sebab terkejut kot aku menjawab...selama ini aku mengalah je...pastu aku pegi sembunyi tempat lain boleh gitew...then aku ciaooo...dengarnya dia dah pengsan2 tadi...wahhh cover baekkkk gitu...at least orang tak sanggup nak marahkan dia kan...sib baik aku ada course for 3 days starting from tomorrow...takde mood aku nak tengok muka dia tu...

So that's it...the day I finally mengamuk pegi layan orang tak betul aku pun jadi tak betul...adehhhhh

Sorrow...

2010-11-06T20:42:00.004+08:00

I'm writing this with tears falling down my face...mom passed away last monday...it's been hard but I'm coping with this grief as best that I can...

semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya...amin.

My Adam Lambert Experience

2010-10-18T22:28:00.009+08:00

Yessss I went to his concert and yes I was blown away by his captivating self, his powerful and haunting vocals, his endless energy, his superb showmanship...hahah I think you get my drift...I can go on and on and still there's simply no words to describe how amazing he is to me...

Actually when I heard that he would be performing here, I was sort of resigned to not being there...I knew that there's no chance in hell that I could go to this show...what with my mum being very sick, there's no one to accompany to go to KL, no friends in real life who is also a fan of adam, bla bla...but thanks to my cyber friends who forced me to go and my real life friends who were willing to sacrifice their precious time for me, I finally took the plunge and went and I'm so glad I did!!!

I did take some pics with my crappy phone but they didn't turn out so well so won't be putting them here...but there's a lot of pics and videos online that I've been enjoying these couple of days...

I decided to go after getting a text message from my friend in KL asking me whether the plan was still or not...hahah I sort of beg him to go with me even though he has never been a fan of adam and I thought I couldn't go anyway...and by that time I was overwhelmed by stress and that's it...I texted a good friend of mine asking her to accompany me to KL and since she didn't want to watch the concert, confirmed with the friend at KL and then bought the tickets online...hahah who would have thought...

So the day itself when smoothly until I got the news that there was an urgent meeting at the time I was supposed to get off from work...that totally freaked me out hahah...went to see the boss and made some sort of excuses which were all true but I did omit some important thing such as the reason that I need to go to KL hahah and since she didn't ask hahah...

So went home and then fetched my friend at her house...it took about 2.5 hours for us to arrive at our hotel and then waited for KL my friend to fetch me...wahhh he was soooo late and by the time he arrived I was like Oh God we're going to be so late and feeling so fed up already hahah...but after a nail-bitten hour in the car (for me but not for him heheh) we finally arrived...yeahhhhhhh and adam didn't start yet...yesssssssss oh yessssssss

And then finally there's adam lambert in all his glory...it was so surreal, felt like I was dreaming. In fact the whole first set felt like I was dreaming and I sat there in a trance I think hahah couldn't quite take it all in...but by the second set I was my self again and started to really enjoy the show, I mean reaaaaalllly, reaaaaalllyyyy enjoy it...Fever was great, it set the mood for the whole show for me and I think he was his best with Sure Fire Winners and If I had You for the fast numbers...I love all his slow songs especially Soaked. Goodness he was sooo amaaaazing with Soaked and then Sleepwalker and of course Broken Open and Aftermath...He changed the arrangement a bit for Whatya Want From Me and it was still great though I prefered the original version.

And then for encore we got Mad World and 20th Century Boy ...woww boy got some pipe there...and by this time I was like Oh please don't let this end, please don't let him go, I still want him here hahah...yeah sad I know hahahahha...and then its finally over...walked to the car in a daze and still in a daze for a few days hahaha...even now I still feel I'm dreaming the whole thing...

After watching him live all I can say is his voice is out of the world, I now have a crush on him and I want to watch him all over again! Adammmmmm I lurvvvve youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu hahah

All the excellent pics and videos are not from me...all credits to them pls :)

Set list

Voodoo
For Your Entertainment
Down the Rabbit Hole
Ring of Fire
Sleepwalker
Whatya Want From Me
Soaked
Broken Open
Aftermath
Sure fire Winners
Music again
If I Had You

Encore
Mad World
20th Century Boy

P/s: Wah panjangnya post...malas ah nak edit..hentam jelahhhhhh

Mamat ni nak datang Malaysia katanya

2010-09-21T19:58:00.009+08:00

Yessss!!!!!!Adam Lambert is coming to Malaysia!!!! Eh eh sebenarnya dah lama tau dia nak datang tapi sebab kebarangkalian boleh pergi tu teramatlah tipis, nipis, tirus dan sewaktu dengannya, malas ler nak sexcited pasal menda alah ni...but today I found out that there is a possibility for me to watch the concert and I pun apa lagi...rasa nak yabedabeduuu semua, walaupun still cannot buy the tickets selagi my friend belum betul2 confirm...at least there's a still a chance...kannnnnnnnn...

Hmmm, tadi masa nak post I dah berkobar2 not to use bahasa rojak but still I use jugakkkk...walaupun dulu masa bergiat dalam bidang bahasa ni I bukan main lagi mengutuk sapa2 yg merojakkan bahasa but now that I'm just a coolie gomen, things change...sedey dengan diri sendiri sebab macam tak tetap pendirian. But one thing for sure, I will not use bahasa sms/bahasa pelat/bahasa urban ler konon yang memang I cannot accept contohnya macam sihat jadi chat (wtf), ok jadi k...dan sebagainyalah...I boleh jadi tensen baca bahasa macam niiiiiiiiiiiii...

And satu lagi, nampaknya semua fans I dah lari...yelah, setahun sekali update blog sapalah nak masuk sini, ekeke...tapi kan i noticed masa I post about mek adam lambert itu hari, ramai omputih masuk sini, ekekeke...mesti dia orang pening nak baca bahasa fonen tak fonen, rojak tak rojak omputih campur melayuuuu nihhhh...

Reunion ler sangat

2010-09-14T23:26:00.006+08:00

So malam ni ada reunion kawan2 lama sekolah rendah dulu. And being anti-social like always, I just cannot relate to these kinds of events. Lagipun sekolah zaman Jepun dulu, sapa ler boleh ingat member2 lama tu...wah macam berlagak gitew...but seriously, I'm so not into these kinds of gathering. But sebab nak mengambil hati kawan yg organize this event, kang merajuk tak pasal2 and cakap I sombong ke apa...terpaksalah tunjuk muka. I memang takde niat langsung pun nak pegi but tiba2 dalam pukul 8.40pm dapat call from kawan lama yang paksa suruh pergi so I had no choice terpaksa ler pegi dalam keadaan terpaksa.

And sampai kat sana I was in the car like 3 minutes forcing myself to get out of the car sebab ramai sangat orang kat depan tu...:( And memang tadi I felt so small and wish I could just disappear bila semua sibuk tanya about spouse semua...and one more thing semua orang cakap I nampak lain sangat, which is the polite way of saying wah gemuknya ko, macam dipam2...uwaaaaa...so I have no choice but to makan jusmate after this...

The moral of the story: jangan sibuk nak pegi gathering2 macam ni kalu badan dah naik macam belon and when you don't want to hear all the usual questions...

I will not forgive nor will I forget

2010-07-18T00:35:00.002+08:00

Nampaknya macam trend pulak kan...biler sakit hati ke, sedih ke, baru sibuk nak update blog luahkan apa yang terpendam kekdahnyer...masalahnya I memang tak ingat I ada blog masa tengah happy, bila sedih haaaa baru teringat eh eh ada blog rupanya...

So this week berlakulah perkara yang betul2 menguji kesabaran dan menyeksa batin...it has been a few days but I'm so mad that this stupid thing made me lose my sleep and made shed a few tears...not a few, but berbaldi2 dah...and it made me realise how some people memang penuh dengan kebiadapan dan kebinatangan...

Don't think I will ever recover...here's hoping that the healing will begin so that I can get on with my life...

I Can't Even...

2010-06-05T21:45:00.006+08:00

SOAKED

Soaked to the bone
Sink like a stone
Walk home alone
It's not the first time
It's not the worst crime
Your soul will be OK

And you've had enough
Searching for love
And you miss the touch
Of someone new

Burned by your dreams
It's never how it seems
Cold crushed esteem
Take shelter
And hide forever
Your soul will be OK

And you've had enough
Searching for love
And you miss the touch
Of someone new

And you've had enough
Searching for love
And you miss the touch
Of someone new

Soaked to the bone
Sink like a stone
I will take you home
It's not the first time
It's not the worst crime
Our souls will be OK

Bosan

2010-06-03T21:14:00.004+08:00

The title says it all...tetiba rasa boring giler...nothing on tv and don't feel like doing anything else...not that I watch tv all that much but when I do feel like it, there's nothing interesting to watch it seems...bosaaaaaannnn...

Perasaan meluap2 sekarang nak beli handset baru. Been using the same phone more than three years now... And then I need a new handbag/purse but dah berapa lama cari takde yang berkenan. Maybe I need to do some online shopping? Betapa tak aktifnya hidup sekarang ni kan, paying bills online, beli barang online, tengok tv online...I tried not to buy those online takut teraddicted kan langsung tak keluar rumah ler jawabnya...I do get my books online since I can't get them here but that's it...

And have to buy kain baju raya since my tailor has been asking about it...nanti dia memang tak nak terima dah...nasib baik I have more than enough shoes so tak terasa nak beli kasut baru...yang ada ni pun tak terpakai pun, heheh...Oh yeah need to buy some fragrance sebab yang ada nih dah nak habis...

Hishhhh banyak betul menda nak beli tapi duitnya tadak...muahaha...maybe I'll just buy things that I really, really need but gotta restrain myself on certain things like the portable HD that I've been thinking of buying? Or a new watch? Or the new Canon camera? Hiks...

Hmmm maybe I need to change the title of this post to Things That I Want To Buy But Couldn't? Muahaha...

Tenkiuuuuuuuuuuuuu

2010-05-25T22:03:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated to my fans...eh I mean my readers (readers ke reader...heh) yg masih lagi setia and sanggup baca yesterday's posting...i lap u guysssss so much :) Sempena dengan itu, ai tujukan lagu ni khas buat korang...

Laaa...kensel sbb youtube lembap yg amatz...nak copy video embed code macam menanti buah yg tak gugur2...heheh betul tak perumpaan ni...tapi ok ler...uols mesti bole guess vc sapa I nak tepek kat sini...kan muntah ijau lakkk...ekekke...so terimalah poem yg ntah sapa tulis ni...ai copy paste sajorkkkk...

Of Continuing With This Blog

2010-05-24T20:43:00.006+08:00

Feeling so blue lately...what with all my cats suffering from a virus of some sort...yes, in my later years I'm turning into a crazy cat lady..lol..and last week I was so drained of energy and strength and really had to force myself to act like everything is alright...

*am watching AF8 finale (which seemed to be on repeats 24/7 on @15...lol...) while writing this. The winner, Shahir, although seemed to lack something while performing, has the wow factor, I guess...gosh I'm so late into the game...but he certainly deserves this win.

I know that by now this blog won't have any readers left and I'm not blaming anyone. This has been a tough year for me so far, personal wise, and I only want to keep my cool and my sanity through this difficult time...I can be quite emotional, sometimes...lol...

I'm thinking of creating a new blog for a new me but decided to just continue with this blog...*eiiii si adlin ramli ni is so irritating...oppps sorry...heheh

Eh got to stop to do some errands...

Ehhh Lupa Ada Blog

2010-03-22T15:13:00.003+08:00

Hadoiiiii....lama giler tak hapdet blog...lately mood nak menggoreng sepatah dua kata nih memang takde...think I really, really need to force myself to write even just a few words...sayang jugak blog nih walaupun semua peminat dah lari...I'll be back later edit post nih malam nih...sekarang ada keja sket

My Life Has Fallen Apart

2010-01-15T22:52:00.002+08:00

I will always remember this day as the day when the light has gone out of my life...

Last Post before the Coming New Year Kekdahnyer

2009-12-28T22:27:00.005+08:00

I'm sooo not looking forward to the New Year...tak mampu menerima kenyataan diri ini semakin matang heh...kan kalu teringat bole depressed gitew...so untuk mengelakkan tekanan apa kata kita enjoy video mak hadam ni (ai dah ingat2 lupa cara nak tepek youtube nih, jap cuba kita try test ekkkkk...

Eh jadi rupanyaaaaa...video yg menunjukkan keayuan adam nihhh...eh, i mean kemachoan adam nih dah lama jugak keluar tapi memandangkan peminat setia adam nih (sapa tuh? hiks...) bukanlah orang yang teramat rajin menghapdet blog dia, maka adam terpaksa ler menunggu giliran seperti orang kebanyakan juga...heh...

So banyak ler menda yg berlaku this past month, jap nak recall balik... teman seperjuangan ai yg duk kat kolumpo tu ada tolong belikan CD mak hadam kat ai, pastu ada personal problem yg ai buat2 lupa, shopping kat kolumpo beli handbag and kasut sempena tahun baru, singgah2 kedai mas kat kuantan beli jongkong mas ...eh takde ler beli jongkong...giler ke haper...mana ada duit...lainlah kalu jadi bini no 4 bung mokhtar...muahahaha...aper lagi ek...oh yer after so many years of not going to the theater, I finally caved in and went to watch the movie 2012 just for mak hadam tapi tak sanggup tunggu citer tuh habis... uols, citer nih tersangatlah boring and lembap...so, sorry adam, even for you I cannot wait until the it ends...

Emmm malas ler pulak tetiba...so kita stop sini dulu ekkkkk...

Mayday Mayday

2009-11-21T22:23:00.006+08:00

Adeh...jenuh nak sign in taw...the reason is i simply terforget my password uols...bole gitew? muahahaha...so confirm ler dah berzaman tuan blog nih tak masuk blog dia sendiri. Ntah, kenapa yer dia malas sangat nak hapdet blog sendiri...i pun tak tawww...hiks...

So much has happened since the last time I blogged... can't believe that this Monday Adam Lambert will be on American Music Awards... I was waiting forever for this to happen and of course, his album gonna drop on Tuesday...but me as his diehard fan cannot beli album dia bole? Tak tau ler bila CD dia sampai kat Msia nih...ntah2 kena banned pun tak tawww...because of his gayness uols...yer...adam nih sorang yang riang ria uols...get it? happy and gay? muahahaha...

Last week was hectic and full of madness I guess...the madness was all on my side of course...muahaha...so, as a result I couldn't quite keep up with all the news on Adam Lambert...yeah, that's like the most important agenda for me right now...heheh...and on that note, i tetiba tak tau nak tulis apa dah kat sini...tadi kan main mencurah2 idea...maybe it's something to do with my cat having berak atas enjin kereta tadi and I spend an hour to clean it all up and even now it still smells somewhat like shit...hishhhh..kalu ingat nak wallop jer kucing tuh but then my cats know how much I love them and tend to ambik kesempatan atas kebaikan tuan dia nihhhh...baik ke...hehehhh...kinzir punya kucingggggggg!!!!

Ooopssss...

2009-10-05T22:00:00.004+08:00

Guys, sorry about the rants last night...

Kekadang tuh i lupa ingatan maka terjadi ler kisah2 menggerunkan macam semalam...heheh..

To gurgurl, muz and emily, don't worry guys, mak masih normal lagi...muahaha..

Anywaysss, here's some funny pics to enlighten the day...i certainly need theseeeeee in my life right now...lol..

Welcome to the Real World

2009-10-05T00:15:00.006+08:00

Soooo why suddenly your problem IS my problem? So you cannot have any worries unlike us normal people? So you have to burden someone else because of your inability in handling anything you consider a problem? I have enough on my plate as it is without you making it worse. Since when I have to deal with all your shit. I'm this close to slapping you...and I'm never a violent person. And I'm telling you if you have my life right now you'll be a basketcase by now...God give me strength from all the people who have it easy in life and just go berserk when life is not all a bed of roses...

Rain, rain go away, come again some other day...

2009-10-04T21:03:00.007+08:00

I know that I haven't been blogging for quite some time now and when I did blog, it's all about Adam Lambert...but I feel the need to write today, straight from the heart and I won't bother to edit this as usual...I mean let's face it...Do I have any readers now? What cyber friends that I have now all gone and it's not through the fault of anyone but mine alone. Yeah... bad grammar and all but that is not important enough for now.

I blog to escape from the real world which has always been full of crap but lately just when I thought life could not get any worse, it seemed that it has. I'm not the one to cry river of tears when life gets me down and I know some has it tougher than me...and is there anyone who doesn't have any problem anyway? And I'm not saying that my problems are bigger than yours though they sure feel like that sometimes but THEY ARE MY PROBLEMS so they take precedence from anyone else here.

And so I escape by living in bubbles, by idolizing Adam and Riz before this. I would flail if I heard any exciting news about Adam and if I know he's happy then I'm happy. I know some wouldn't understand this and would think I'm nuts and I'm not justifying my behaviour here. It's certainly not the entitlement that Adam talked about some of his fans... I hardly send him any twits and I hardly talk about him on any of the US forums that I lurk.

But lately I feel all the weight and pain of life upon me. Sometimes I feel like going mad from all these and all my Adamizing doesn't seem to help either. Please God give me strength...

Glittery Alien From Planet Fierce

2009-08-18T20:38:00.005+08:00

I have no wordssss...

You Ruined My Life!

2009-08-16T22:45:00.014+08:00

Just reread my last post. Wow, how cliche was that! Sorry guys. Seemed that my writing is becoming more and more cliche everyday! So basically my Adamazing does not only ruin my life and turns me into a recluse but also ruins my blog...heheh...See Adam what you have done...but I still love you anyway...muahaha...

And of course, here's some Adam:

What he's doing now...touring US:

The Story of My Life

2009-07-22T21:38:00.010+08:00

Can this day get any worse? Not sure how much I can take anymore before I completely go bananas! Even now I'm still deep in this shit! Sheesh..Funny what people will do to save their own skin...Thank God for Adam! At least I can forget all this stupidity for a while by having my Adam fix. Lame isn't it...

Why so adorable, Adam?

Mush

2009-06-24T21:02:00.010+08:00

I'm so digging all these ballads covered by Adam. He really touched me with his interpretation...sigh*...erkkk...did I tell you how much I love Adam? Muahaha...

Adam's cover of Onerepublic's Come Home

[Verse 1]
Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I`m young
For speaking out of turn
There`s someone I`ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They`re in their own place trying to make it right
But I`m tired of justifying
So i say you`ll..

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I`ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I`ve ever known
So come home
Oooh

[Verse 2]
I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain`t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeahh
Well maybe I`m just dreaming out loud
Until then
Come home
Come home
Cause I`ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I`ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oooh

[Interlude]
Everything i can`t be
Is everything you should be
And that`s why i need you here
Everything i can`t be
Is everything you should be
And that`s why i need you here
So hear this now

[Chorus}
Come home
Come home
Cause I`ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I`ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home

Five For Fighting's I Just Love You

Lonely, yeah that's the word
I leave my heart when I leave her
The days go on forever and the nights do too

One evening out on the road
A half a world away from home
I thought she was sleeping
When the call came through

I said, Darling, it's late, is everything ok
Silence took over the room
Til she said

I... I just Love You
I Don't Know Why, I Just Do
When are you coming home
I'm coming home soon
And I just love you too

Lonely lets me be
For a while she sets me free
I close my eyes and I dream of her

She's lost in my arms
Her head on my heart
And softly she whispers the words

I...I just Love You
I Don't Know Why, I Just Do
When are you coming home
I'm coming home soon
And I just love you too

I'll never stop being amazed
How my 4-year old girl knows exactly what to say

I, I just Love You
I Don't Know Why, I Just Do
When are you coming home
I'm coming home soon
Cause I just love you too

I Can't Make You Love Me

I Can't Make You Love Me

Turn Down The Light
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me
Tell me no lies
Just hold me close
Don't patronise
Don't patronise

'Cause i can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something that it won't
Here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And i feel the power
But you won't, no you won't

'Cause i can't make you love me if you don't
I'll close my eyes, then i won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Mornin' will come and i'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And i will give up this fight

'Cause i can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something that it won't
Here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And i feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause i can't make you love me if you don't

*
I, I just Love You,
I Don't Know Why, I Just Do

I Want My Life Baaaaaaack!

2009-06-23T19:46:00.004+08:00

Muahahaha...I'm telling y'aaalll, life as Adam Lambert's fanatic is sure exhausting! I hardly can keep up with all the news and stuff about the fantastic Adam Lambert. Woooo...did I just use the word fantastic? Corny right? Heh...Am i obsessed? Possessed? Heheh...whatever...I'm enjoying the ride now but I sure am losing sleep over this obsession of mine...oh well...

therealGlambert (his twitter account)

It's Official

2009-05-23T21:27:00.002+08:00

Sooo...i finally lose my mind completely and just joined adam lambert official site...muahaha...

Adam Lambert is MY Idol

2009-05-22T21:28:00.005+08:00

The Tribe Has Spoken

2009-04-20T19:59:00.007+08:00

Waaahhh...is it April already? How time flies...heheh...sudah berjaman rupanya I tak hapdet blog...erkkkkk...why is it lately I always start my entry with the same sentence or ayat2 yang sewaktu dengannya. Thanks to my lone reader, Emily (glemer gitew nama), I finally decided to end the long drought and merapu meraban barang sepatah dua...

Actually I ala2 demam sekarang nih...even the voice has become kind of sexy (sexy kerrrrr) with the serak2 kering..awwww...what's wrong with me this year...badan asyik tak sihat ajer nih...eh lupa...dah kertu kekdahyer...hiks...

So this week from Wed to Fri I ader camping kat tepi pantai katernya and of course perkara yang berlegar2 dalam fikiran I sekarang ni how on earth can I watch Adam Lambert on American Idol? Boleh gitew...bukan nak fikir how to do the task assigned and menjaga peserta2 camping tu...heheh...I can only get back at 11pm and have to be at the site as early as 6.45am...eeeiiiiii..TENSENNNNNNNN...muahahaha...

And then got a course on Sat-Sun...mencikkkkk...heheh...penat2 camping korang suh mak
pegi course pulak..aper nih...actually I don't mind the work...what i mind is not getting my weekly fix of adam lambert...uwaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

Tulah korang...nak sangat I hapdet...tengok sekarang kan dah meroyan...heh...

btw...if I feel like it and in the mood, I'll try to snap some pics at the camping site kat cherating tu and post them here hoccay...

Menunaikan Tanggungjawab

2009-03-31T18:58:00.008+08:00

Hiks...menunaikan tanggungjawab katernya...Tibalah masa untuk I menunaikan tanggungjawab sebagai seorang blogger yang semakin lama semakin melupakan rumahtangga kekdahnyer...jadi mengenangkan tanggungjawab dan rumah yang bersawang ini maka dengan rasa penuh tanggungjawab I have to memaksakan diri mengemaskinikan blog yang sudah lama tidak berhapdet ini...

It's not that I do not want to update (read: excuses) but as usual since I ni kan ala2 CEO..so there's no time for me to blog...tetapi I ada banyak masa untuk lepak2 kat forum AI untuk sama2 membincangkan isu yang tengah hangat diperdebatkan masa kini..yessss..what else but Adam Lambert..muahahaha...

Yes readers...I tengah angau dengan Adam Lambert...the one and only Adam Lambert...so if si hadek Adam ni tereliminated (rosak bahasa ni) and not in the Final, I boikot tak nak tengok final American Idol...just like last year when my fav, Michael Johns was eliminated and I didn't bother to watch the Final..but the thing is this is the first time I giler macam ni kat peserta AI ni..the only contestant that I really dig before this was Elliot Yamin but of course ler takde ler berselera macam si hadek Adam ni...maklumlah..Elliot Yamin tu kan tak hensem, so saper ler nak feeling2 hot kat dia kannnn..heheh..

The Many Faces of Adam Lambert

And I was really disappointed with AF this year...all the pelajar (pelajar ke) takde satu pun yang ada umpphhh...takde yang melekat di hati ini...transformation kononnyer..eh it's not academy no more kannn... faculty katernya and siap ada principal bagai..senang jer sekarang ni yer nak dapat sijil kannn..but then kat luar sana pun berlambak sijil beli ni ...everyone ada degree kekdahnyer as long as you have the money you boleh masuk mana2 college yang berlambak sekarang nih and then boleh belajar ala kadar and loook...you've got a degree...but then who am I nak memperkatakan tentang pendidikan anak bangsa kita...this is a whole new topic...tak kuasalah nak berleter pasal menda nih...

Another thing is I dah 2 minggu kurang sihat..kepala asyik berdenyut jer...not migraine...just normal headache tapi berdenyut2 sampai nak tidur pun tak boleh.. I think it's the weather...my mom pun dah berminggu2 tak sihat...mula2 demam and until now she's still not that well...my neighbours pun ramai yang demam...cuaca yang panas berbahang ni memang menyesakkan...I have to telan painkillers almost everyday because of the headache walaupun I cuba elakkan bergantung pada pills ni but then kalu tak ambik memang tak boleh buat keja...even last weekends when friends asked me to go shopping2 I declined...wah ajak shopping pun boleh tolakkkk...tak larat kekdahnyer...last week was really rough...I memang takde tenaga and really have to force myself...ada masa tu macam nak merangkak jer...so far minggu ni takdelah seteruk tu but datang pulak headache ni...ke ni faktor umur...makin tua makin berisi...eh silap...makin tua makin banyak penyakit...hiks..

Wahhh satu perenggan didedikasikan kepada cuaca dan penyakit sahaja..heh...sorry yer readers...nanti lari kan semua peminat I ni...so my routine nowadays mesti tetiap minggu tunggu Wednesday and Thursday nak tengok Adam...eh is it Wednesday yet?...and I leave you with 2 videos of the amazing Adam singing "Black and White" and "Tracks of My Tears". Daaaa...

Have Lappy Will Travel

2009-03-15T20:12:00.005+08:00

I seriously in need of a notebook/laptop or whatever they call it these days...not the canggih2 one...just a cheap2 one for me to do my work...if I want to buang masa hapdet blog or join the American Idol forum or gazing adoringly at pictures of my hero Adam Lembik..eh sorry, Adam Lambert, I have my faithful pc buruk ni.. But me being me, I can never be like others who can just grab anything at the stores...I have to ponder (ponder ke..heh)and think and think and taking such a looong time just to buy something that I need urgently (boleh?)and can never make up mind which notebook to buy...heheh...so guys, can you please help me making up my mind in choosing a laptop...any suggestions anyone?...and I don't want a bulky one hoccay! just small2 one but with CD drive...it seemed most of the mini laptops don't have CD drives...erkkk...ader ke orang nak bagi suggestion nih..erkkk..ader ke orang baca nihhh..muahaha..

Sakit Pinggan

2009-03-10T20:41:00.007+08:00

Eh kenapa tetiba rajin pulak nih..demam ke ni tetiba rajin pulak hapdet blog..heheh..the truth is i yam so exhausted these couple of days..and today rasa flat sesangat..dahlah asyik sakit pinggang jer semenjak dua menjak ni..Hari ni iols terasa nak blogging sebab iols nak mencari tempat untuk meringankan kepala hotak ini..aper lagi merapu meraban kat blog ler jawabnya..

I think one of the reasons that i've been having this mental block is sebabnya i cannot tell about my real job sedangkan there's a lot that I can blog about what is happening at my workplace..some that can even make me smile now..heheh..nak mengumpat boss pun boleh gitew..It's not that I cannot tell uols..tapi iols segan ler nak citer sebab iols nih hanyalah seorang coolie berbanding dengan peminat2 iols yang kebanyakannya adalah CEO, COO dan sewaktu dengannya..heheh..

So tomorrow ader majlis perpisahan yang opis lama buat untuk staf dia yang bertukar ni..aderlah beberapa orang..nak pegi pun dalam keadaan terdesak nih..yelah orang nak meraikan kiter takkan tak nak pegi pulak..malas ler uols nak tengok muka ex-boss yang susah nak senyum tu..dan dalam keadaan banyak keja ni i prefer to stay at the office rather than pegi berjoli sakan nih..tapi mesti dapat hadiah kan besok uols..motif nak pegi jamuan sebab nak dapat hadiah..ntah2 hadiah kedai 2 hengget sajork...muahaha..iols selalu berfikiran negatif kan..berburuk sangka..tak baik kannnnn..tapi iols ader masalah besar ni..tak sempat nak tempah baju mengerlip..pehal ler korang jemput lambat nih..koser...tak sempat nak jahit labuci n manik bagai ni..

Adeh sakit pinggang ni..kena stop nih..uols tau tak kitorang kan kalu sakit pinggang kekadang tersebut sakit pinggan tau..heh..tak cayer ke..kalu tak cayer cuba dengar my boss berucap..selalu tertinggal 'g' tu..muahahahah..

Hilang Ingatan

2009-03-08T18:27:00.004+08:00

Koser nih..blog sendiri pun tak ingat..sori yer uols..iols mengalami amnesia sebenarnya..selective amnesia..amnesia ini hanya terjadi apabila ia berkaitan dengan blog, forum dan social sites (read: facebook} sajer kekdahnyer..muahaha..

I'm telling u uols, tersangatlah susahnya nak memaksa diri ini yang solid molid nih untuk menghapdet blog yg vass d'vogue ini..mungkin sebabnya tujuan asal iols memblog hanyalah untuk meluahkan perasaan yang terpendam dan terbuku di hati gitew..and sekarang ni ios takde perasaan kotttt..heheh..or maybe sebab iols nih dah tak reti nak membebel2 macam dulu..heheh..

So sekarang ni fikiran tengah berserabut dengan kerja..tapi menda ni perkara biasalah kannn..it's normal uols..kalu takde keja lagi parahhh...and iols pun tenang dengan kehidupan peribadi iols..takdelah macam dulu..agaknya iols makin matang dalam menghadapi kehidupan yang penuh pancaroba ini dan boleh menerima takdir dan ketentuan Ilahi..eh apehal pulak tetiba nada hepi bertukar sayu nih..hiks..

And semalam iols telah menyambut kelahiran cucu 3 ekor..ibu kucing tu betul2 menyusahkan orang semalam..buat bising semalaman sampai iols tak boleh tidur..dahlah main lompat2 atas perut iols masa iols tengah tido..hisshhh..mamai iols hari ni pegi keja..orang lain tak tido sebab baby menangis nak susu, iols tak boleh tido sebab kucing nak beranak..boleh gitew..

Sekarang ni there's nothing much to look forward to..except for American Idol..hiks..iols takde semangat pun nak tengok Akademi Fantasia..tapi tak taulah uols..tahun lepas pun macam ni jugak..dalam takde mood nak tengok akhirnya meroyan jugak..heheh..but this year I really don't feel like watching..the only programme yg menaikkan semangat iols of courselah AI sebab ader Adam Lambert the ultimate gay, Anoop Desai and Mike Sarver..tapi iols dah makin hilang minat kat mamat Sarver ni..oohhh tidak..please don't tell me I'm falling for a gay..muahahah..minat performance dia sajork hoccay..bukan sebab muka dan badannya yang tasty dan tough macam jantan sejati tuh..unlike our very own azwana yang terserlah kegayahannya tu..hiks..

And then iols sedang bergelut ngan masalah acne and pimples..ni semua penangan skincare product yang iols terpengaruh untuk menggunakannya hujung tahun lepas..kononnya kulit akan menjadi putih dan berseri2..berseri2 apernya..habis rosak muka iols..tukar produk lain, buat facial, pakai acne gel semua tak berkesan..tensennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn ..how come at this age tiba2 muncul masalah ni..sebelum ni hoccay je kulit muka iols..licin dan gebu je..gebu ke..hiks..

And satu lagi even though iols tak berjaya mengamalkan diet seperti yang dicanang2kan sebelum ini, iols dah kurangkan makan kek uols..actually iols dah 3 bulan tak makan kek secret recipe dan big apple doughnuts..amacam..kagum tak uols..tapi kan iols sentiasa terbayang2 kelazatan makanan2 itew and the other thing is..walaupun dah tak menjamah semua itew, badan iols takdenyer turun pung..makin naik ader lahhhh....uwaaaaaaaaaaa..

The Year of The Hadeks2

2009-02-15T19:43:00.007+08:00

Grrrr..Mr Sarver

For something that started so strong American Idol (AI) is going downhill fast. I mean, seriously? Choosing the likes of nathaniel, norman gentle and tatiana over jamar? Yes, norman can sing but he's not in the same league as jamar..and choosing someone for the sake of some comic relief is so not funny hoccay. And nathaniel and tatiana? I'm so not going into that..eh I take that back..si bapok nathaniel is so drama queen and combined with the annoying and irritating fakey tatiana we have the 8th season of AI uols..heh..

And we have adam lambert yang muka tasty tapi hadeks2. Can you believe it he actually sang Cher's number..ko feeling2 drag queen ke nyahhh. I do hope tatiana won't be another sanjaya where the Vote For The Worst helped pushing him through even though talent dia mediocre sajorkkk..

But one thing that annoys the hell out of me is the way they put my fav michael sarver against the AI darling and the chosen one danny gokey, the laid back and vocally talented anoop desai and saper lagi yang power2 tu in the 1st group..this is so unfair..to have the best battling againt the best..yang weak tu are going to sail through when they up against talent yang lebih kurang sama dengan dia orang..well, I hope I won't be as disappointed as last year when michael johns was eliminated..we'll see what happens next. Mak pasrah...hopefully michael sarver will make it through and bergelut dengan hadeks2 dalam AI ini..you're my only hope, sarver..ko sajork lelaki gagah perkasa yang mak nampak..yang lain semua tangan terkulai..uwaaaaaaa

Ramblings, Episode 2

2009-02-07T20:36:00.010+08:00

So how long has its been? Sori uols..iols ingat2 lupa iols ada blog..hiks..anyway there's nothing much happening in my life for me to blog about..wahhh alasan..heheh..kenapa ler sekarang ni iols malas ler sangat nak hapdet blog nihhh..koser nih nak memaksakan diri sendiri nak menghapdet blog sendiri..siannyer iols kan..

So now I yam so into American Idol..heheh..there's a contestant yang lawak giler uols..iols boleh ketawa terbahak2 tengok contestant ni..but the funny thing is he made it to the next round..motiffff...tak kisahlah..yang penting mak suka ler norman gentle nih..lawaks uols...ni dia punya youtube

Haha..crazy guy..pastu sekarang ni iols tak sabar nak tunggu Confessions of A Shopaholic movie ngan Gang Upin Ipin..malangnya kat tempat iols nih takde panggung wayang ler pulak..so camner nak tengok ek korang..haruskah iols beli VCD cetak rompak korang..eh lupa..zaman sekarang dah tak main VCD..sumer DVD gitew..hishhh..tapi kisahnyer iols lama giler tak tengok movie nih sumer..

Gitewlah kisahnyer..eh jangan lupa tengok Grammy besok..iols harap lagu Coldpay Viva La Vida dapat ler Song of the Year..kalu bukan Coldplay, Jason Mraz pun ok..kekdahnyer iols memang suka lagu2 Coldplay dari dulu lagi..lagu Yellow, The Scientist etc sumer best uols..tapi yang tak bestnyer lirik lagu Viva La Vida nih macam ada perkataan Roman Catholics and missionaries ajer..hmmm..boleh ke kita suka lagu macam tu uols..tapi melody dia best ler korang...

Eh lupa nak bagitau iols dah taste kat sorang peserta AI nih..harap2 ler dia lepas the next round..seb baik ler dia nih tak masuk AF..kalu tak muflis lah iols duk ngundi dia..heheh..tapi ni antara peserta yg menarik minat iols

Adam Lambert

Anoop Desai

and yang ni ler yang iols taste tapi dalam gambar ni apsal dia nampak tembam lak..heheh..

Michael Sarver

Grrrr..manly sangatlah Mr Sarver nihhh..heh..wokeh..that's all folks..wait for my next hapdet next month..muahahaha..gurau sajorkkkk..

When In Need

2009-01-20T22:51:00.006+08:00

Waaahh...lama tak duk depan pc...sori korang...teruk kena migraine 2-3 hari ni..yelah orang ni kalu dah nak masuk separuh abad ni mulalah macam2 penyakit datang menyerang...masa muda2 bergetah dulu takde pulak penyakit2 ni semua..koser nihhh...

So nak ceritanya pasal lawatan sambil balajar ke spital kerajaan tadi...sanggup ni langgar pantang larang sendiri on pc semata2 nak mengumpat & mengutuk spital kerajaan...pagi semalam dah pegi klinik sebab migraine..sehari sebelum tu memang dah kena masa tengah hari so terus balik rumah ala2 koma tak sedar diri atas katil..tak sedar diri ke tak sedarkan diri ni..hiks..sempat tu..

Pastu pagi semalam menda tu menyerang lagi kat opis...terpaksa kacau boss tengah meeting cakap nak pegi klinik..boss pun buat muka tak koser...mesti dia ingat aku ni berpenyakit...baru jer tukar sini dah macam2 penyakit..dah lah kena marah kat Dr. Wee tu sebab dia cakap aku tak makan ubat masa kena migraine...ingat je Dr. Wee kisah zaman dahulu kala tu..

So aku balik rumah terus ala2 koma lagi atas katil..

Pagi tadi aku rasa macam dah ok jer..so pegi ler keja..tapi ntah macam mana penyakit tu datang lagi...kalu aku kena menda nih vision jadi makin lama makin kecik, ada spots semua...nampak tak nampak jer..kadang nampak macam berair je pandangan pastu kepala tu tak usah cakap ler...aku ingat nak tahan jer sakit tuh lagipun ubat pun dah makan ..tapi sampai tengah hari tak boleh jadi jugak..gelap jer pandangan ni..so aku ingat nak pegi spital kerajaan ler sebab kawan aku cakap kalu pegi spital kerajaan dia orang check darah semua..so fikir..why not..second opinion kan..mana tau ubat dia orang lagi berkesan kan..so pegilah aku spital kerajaan selepas berkurun2 tak mendapatkan rawatan kat situ..

So lepas tunggu giliran yang semestinya sampai berjanggut...aku cakaplah masalah aku kat doktor tu..boleh dia cakap ni semua pasal spek yang aku pakai...power spek tak betullah...aku pakai sesuka hati akulah, tak pakai sepanjang masa ler..suka hati je tuduh aku..malas aku nak bagitau dia aku pakai contact lense sebenarnya..2-3 hari ni je pakai spek sebab leceh sakit kepala ni..mulalah macam2 dia cakap pasal spek aku nih..aku cakap takde kaitan dengan power spek ler tapi dia terus suh aku pegi bilik tempat check vision..ok lah..aku ikut je..

Pastu lepas check vision, aku masuk jumpa doktor ni balik. Dia heran naper power spek tu ok..erkk...whatever..

Pastu aku pun cakap ler aku dah jumpa Dr. Wee ni sebelum ni and tunjukkan ubat2 dia tapi tak berkesan..sebab aku nak jalan pun macam nak rebah jer..dia tengok ubat2 tu tapi tak tau apa jenis ubat tu..and then get this..she got out a textbook! At least aku rasa ler buku teks..heheh..mulalah membelek satu2 halaman..lama wehhh..pastu tak jumpa..apalah yang dia cari...pastu dia pegi bilik sebelah..lama tu masuk balik..ambik balik buku tadi..belek2 lagi..and then "HAH! dah jumpa nama ubat tuh!!!" Muahahahahahahahahah...

Gitulah kisahnya...lepas jumpa doktor spital kerajaan ni tak payah makan ubat pun terus baik sendiri..serius..tak tipu..dalam keadaan tengah teruk tadi tiba2 jadi baik lepas sepetang bersama doktor tu..balik tumah tadi aku rasa cergas jer..and tadi aku baru makan ubat Dr. Wee tu..hiks..

*citer ni ditulis tanpa sebarang editing..kalu tak paham buat2 ler paham..heheh..

Grief

2009-01-13T22:46:00.006+08:00

Sorry guys, just don't feel like writing anything. My problems and my everyday life are nothing compared to the heartbreaking situation in Gaza.

I can't read the papers without crying...can't watch the news without weeping...even though my tears are worthless, I just can't help feeling the pain...

Lesu

2009-01-08T23:03:00.003+08:00

Sooo..what to write...macam ada mental block pulak. Eh macam ler aku nih penulis siap ada mental block bagai nih... I can be quite delusional sometimes...heheh. Well, for what its worth, I do have two books under my belt...macam tak percaya kan...even though ai bukan ler penulisnya, cuma menterjemah isi kandungnya sahaja...at least ada jugak nama yang vogue lagi vass ni kat buku tu kan...wahhh...tetiba je masuk bakul angkat sendiri nihhhh...pehal lak nih...heheh...or maybe since there's nothing exciting or happening enough in my life right now for me to blog so terpaksa ler citer kisah yang berlaku setengah abad yang lalu...hahh tu jelah citernyer...koser buang masa syok sendiri kan...heh..

Sebenarnya minggu nih lesu jer memalam...asal malam mesti tak larat...asal tak larat mesti memalam...muahaha...sebenarnya bukan apa...semenjak dua menjak ni manjang jer tak berapa nak sihat...tapi yg herannya siang ok jer...boleh jer berkerja dengan daddy kasi tapi biler malam jer terus lemah longlai...kisahnya sekarang ni tak lalu nak makan pagi..tengah hari baru rasa lapar tapi masa tu segala angin dah masuk so kenalah gastrik sampai malam...hari2 macam nih...tapi yang herannya berat tak turun2 pulak...heheh...

Begitu ler citernyer...tak syok kan korang nak baca...internet pun dah jarang bukak sekarang...setakat check email and berhai2 & bye2 ngan pepari barang seminit dua dan jawab komen dan chat yang konstruktif dan membina daripada peminat2 kat blog ni...muahaha...

Eh satu lagi nampak gayanya macam nak kena beli notebook jer...setakat ni ai ada pc sajorkkkk...keja sekarang nih rasanya memang sangat2 memerlukan notebook/laptop nih...nak kena survey dululah...beli yg murah2 jer...ai ni bukannya berduit macam si Sarah yg ada collection laptop yg canggih2 gitew...heheh...ok ler korang...nak kena baring2 nih...sib baik kat tganu besok dah tak keja kekdahnyer...

P/s: I'm a woman hoccay..bukan sesuatuh..muahaha..

A Whole New World

2009-01-03T22:54:00.002+08:00

It has been raining non-stop these few days
And I love it
Ever since I was a kid I was fascinated by the rain
by the sound of the rain
by the drops of the rain
For me, rain represents everything good in my life

And my life is changing
Is it for the better?
Only time will tell
The new day is rising
and I just can't wait...

Happy New Year Everybody!

2009-01-01T00:27:00.009+08:00

So here I was rushing like mad to complete the work to be submitted tomorrow. Sheeshh...everybody is celebrating and I'm stuck at home in front of the pc...eh jap..bukan tetiap malam ke duk depan pc...the difference is tonight I have some job to do and the other nights I cuma duk buang masa...muahaha...adatlah manusia..ada keja sket mulalah nak mengomel...and thankfully I managed to complete everything and still got time to update this blog...what with streamyx yang macam *toot nih...I know that's its nothing new with streamyx but I thought they said everthing will be ok by today!

Oh..thanks to those who sms me just now...Happy new year to you too!

And my resolutions for the new year are:

1. To lose at least SOME weight..if not a lot at least some lahh..heheh..

2. To be a better person..cliche yang amat tapi so what..this is MY resolution kannn..menjadi rakyat malaysia yang gemilang, cemerlang dan terbilang..ekekeke...but seriously, I do know my shortcomings and I hope I can overcome them..

3. To control my spending and have more savings...kann Sarah...

So Happy New Year everyone! And to Pepari, angels and my readers, (ada ke?..hiks..) I leave you with this beautiful poem by Joanna Fuchs:

New Year’s Reflections

Looking back on the months gone by,
As a new year starts and an old one ends,
We contemplate what brought us joy,
And we think of our loved ones and our friends.

Recalling all the happy times,
Remembering how they enriched our lives
We reflect upon who really counts,
As the fresh and bright new year arrives.

And when I ponder those who do,
I immediately think of you.

Koser

2008-12-30T23:37:00.007+08:00

Where was I? heheh...entry sebelum nih terbantut sebab ada rombongan lain pulak sampai kat rumah...rupanya perkataan rombongan tu telah menkonfiuskan peminat2 mak kat sini...korangs...rombongan tuh bukan rombongan meminang....tapi kalu rombongan meminang best gak kannn..heheh...eh sat nak garu belakang nih..gatal pulak uols...rombongan tu ialah rombongan family adik beradik mak yang balik kampung bercuti ler...hishhh..korang nihhh...

Actually I'm not in the best of mood right now...naper ler aku ni sekarang ni emo sangat ek...susah ler kalu asyik down macam ni...susah jiwa raga dan batiiiiin nih...koser nak layan feeling2 nih...nampak gayanya antara azam tahun baru aku nih termasuk ler mengawal perasaan yang selalu mendung kelabu nih...eh ada ke azam macam tuh...

So tadi aku jumpa ler kenalan dan rakan taulan yang baru...dan seperti biasa lidah ku kelu untuk berkata...tadi masa ada makan2 pun kalu ikutkan hati aku nak ciao jer tapi aku paksakan diri aku untuk mingle2 ngan 2-3 orang kat situ...aku dapat bayangkan muka aku yang senyum paksa tuh...heheh...

Salah satu sebab yang membuatkan aku macam malas nak mingle nih sebab semua orang duk sibuk tanya kenapa aku tak kawin2 lagi...mencikkkk...apa...korang ingat aku nih alien from outer space ke...mak manusia biasa yang ada perasaan tau...siap ada sorang minah nih cakap kat aku takpe maybe jodoh aku kat tempat baru tu tapi kat situ kebanyakan staf laki dah kawin...WTF...apa ko ingat mak nak cari mangsa kat situ ke...nyahhhh...mak mintak tukar bukan sebab nak cari jodoh ler weiiii...sentap nihhhh...sentappppp makkkkk...muahahaha...

Tak tau ler besok macam mana...kena berlakon lagi ler jawabnya...biasa ler kannn...tempat baru...ai slalu kagum dengan orang yang cepat mesra dengan sesiapa saja nih...macam mana ek korang buat...how I wish I'm like that...tapi macam kata salah sorang pengunjung blog mak nih...curio nama dia...saper ntah dia nih...nama meletops...heheh...jangan mesra sangat...nanti kena buli...a'ah kan curio...betul tuh...kalu buat mesra sangat kan nanti orang pandang semacam pulak...pehal minah nih...psiko ke...

Pastu tadi ada sorang minah nih siap komen kasut yg mak pakai tadi...my brand new wedges...sib baik mak tak pelangkung dia dengan wedges tuh...komen pasal handbag mak lah...aku buat muka seposen jer walaupun dalam hati aku nak gelak jer tadi...hiks...

So terima jelah...actually ai tak kisah sangat pun sebab baru first day...lepas ni sure ok...walaupun ai akan mengambil masa berbulan2 untuk mesra dengan dorang...bila dah mesra pulak terus jadi over...heheh..

Eh dah banyak dah merapu meraban nih...So soalannya di sini berapakah kata ganti nama diri yang digunakan dalam entry ini untuk menggambarkan diri penulis? Muahaha...apa nih...kejap aku, kejap ai, kejap mak...koserrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

Ramblings

2008-12-29T19:27:00.005+08:00

It's been a while isn't it...ai ni dah ala2 lupa yang ai ni ada blog kekdahnyer..heheh..apa nih..lupa blog sendiri.. been quite busy lately (ye ke busy..ke lazy..hiks..) to do any entry or chat with pepari and angels...and I have a big day tomorrow...meeting my new colleagues for the first time. And ai yam sooooo nervous uols. I'm not the peramah2 one kalu mula2 jumpa...people tend to regard me as kind of aloof and sombong maaaaa kalu mula2 jumpa...doakan ai besok ek..heheh..

So kisahnya sejak dari minggu lepas lagi banyak rombongan yang sampai kat rumah. Sebagai adik bongsu yang kertu mak terpaksalah layan dia orang semua kannn...gitewlah kejanya...dulu masa memula balik keja kat kampung ulu ni mak tensen ler jugak sebab dah macam ala2 bibik dah...from being ala2 CEO to a bibik katernyer...muahahaha...mak tensen uols...tapi itu kisah dulu...sekarang ni ai dah matang dan boleh menghadapi segala dugaan dan cabaran yang datang melanda...heheh...waahhh ayat...

Eh lupa..I've read two more of sophie kinsella's works. Shopaholic Takes Manhattan and Remember Me. Hmm..Shopaholic Takes Manhattan is not as enjoyable as Confessions of a Shopaholic and somehow I didn't quite like Remember Me... eh..jap...ada satu rombongan lagi baru sampai...sambung karang ler jawabnyer...

Confessions of A Book Addict

2008-12-21T22:33:00.011+08:00

After much persuasion from Alys, my felow pepari..erkk..alys, why is it your name always pops up in my entry?..heheh...I've bought The Undomestic Goddess at Mesra Mall (it was the only Sophie Kinsella's book there) and after devouring the book in a day, (wah such a big word..hiks) decided to go to East Coast Mall Kuantan to get her other books...but instead of buying all her books, I decided to take only two as a precaution..what if she's not that good in the other books..who knows I'm not like the masses who simply lurveee the shopaholic series kannn..

So I got myself Can You Keep A Secret and Confessions of A Shopaholic..actually I was looking for Remember Me but it was not at the shop and after much hesitation I said to myself "oh, what the hell..just get the damn book!" (err..please ignore some words there)and bought the book.

It's not that i didn't know that it's a good book..I've heard of the book for ages it seemed..it's just that I don't want to buy the shopaholic series...i know I WOULD SIMPLY have to read all the books in the series..and guess what..I now have to go Kuantan again to find the other books..hishhh..like I don't have anything better to do..erkk..ader ke..heheh..

And I have to say this..I simply, simply LUUUURVE Confessions of A Shopaholic..I was giggling and laughing while reading the book...oh, what a book!..no wonder everyone loves it...the other two books are also good but the shopaholic book is the best! And now I can't rest until I have all her books...muahaha..

True Blue

2008-12-20T21:25:00.004+08:00

I'm feeling out of sorts these couple of days... I sometimes get into this pensive mood that would left me all depressed and melancholy and I can't seem to shake myself out of it...oh well...it seems I'm human after all...

Oh to be a child again
where everything was so innocent
where life was so uncomplicated
where I didn't have a care in the world
Then I won't be in this sombre mood
reflecting
regretting
and thinking of what ifs...

Only I can come up with such crap poem in this mood...heheh..

Gambo lagi

2008-12-17T00:09:00.001+08:00

These were the pics that I've taken while having a picnic last saturday at monica bay (monica bay katernyer..hiks..)

At the beach

I like this pic the most

The bamboo tree very near my house..just outside the gate

Wahhh..burung enggang lagi..kat rumah..dalam pagar..macam hutan kan uols..heh

Baked Banana Fritters

2008-12-16T21:16:00.024+08:00

Muahaha...wahh..apekah itew..cekodok pisang bakar uols..atau dalam bahasa tganunyer jemput2 pisang bakar..heheh...

Citer nih citer beberapa hari yg lepas uols...ai malas nak hapdet blog kekdahnyer...so jadiler citer past tense...hiks...

Alkisahnya last thursday malam jumaat tuh..waaahhh malam jumaat..heheh.. ai masuk dapur tengok ada pisang dua tandan kat dapur...camner tawww boleh tak nampak pisang yang dah berhari2 kat situ..tak nampak ke buat tak nampak...pisang tu hasil kerja bercucuk tanam mak ai pastu dia letak kat dapur sebelum ikut ahkak dan abang ai ke kuala ganu...ai dah tensen dah masa tu sebab kalu mak ai ada boleh ler dia buat apa2 yg patut kan...buat cekodok pisang ke..bagi jiran sebelah ke...so sebab dah malam takkan ler ai nak ketuk umah jenjiran semata2 kerana pisang dua tandan nih kannnn...so nak mengelakkan dari pisang ni rosak ai pun tetiba jadi kreatif ler...errkk...kreatif kerrr...

pisang nan dua tandan

Ai ingat lagi tahun lepas time2 hujan gini ai rajin ler jugak buat kuih...yang ai ingat ai ada buat apple pie dua kali...walaupun dua2 kali tuh tetap tak jadi sebab every time ai duk roll dough nak cover inti pie tu mesti dough tu pecah2..penat roll tak jadi jugak...heheh..so hasilnya memang buruk ler uols..naper yer masa tgk program masak2 dia orang buat macam senang jer...as easy as ABC..muahaha...lepas tu ai buat fruit cake...yang ni senang jelah..apa lagi ekk..aahh fruit n date scones...cream caramel pudding tu banyak kali jugak ler ai buat walapun tak cantik macam orang lain buat...lantak ler asalkan sedap kan uols...sedap ker...heheh..

Tapi tahun ni naper ntah satu pun ai tak buat...eh apernya tak tau...sebab sibuk bertenet ler uols...ekekek...so malam tu camner ntah tetiba terajin ler nak buat kek sket walaupun takde bahan2 yang diperlukan...

So pas dinner ai pun mula ler buat keja tak berpekdah..ai kopek semua pisang yang dah masak ranum letak dalam bekas...

overdose pisang ler pulak

Pastu ai lenyek2 ler satu pertiga pisang yg ai kopek tu...banyak taww ai lenyek..camner ler nak buat kek terlebih pisang nih..lantak ler..heheh..dah overdose pisang kekdahnyer...

pisang yang dah dilenyek

And then ai cari buku resepi.. cari resepi kek pisang nih...belek2 tengok takde kek pisang...banana bread ader ler..pastu banana bread pun memang tak cukup bahan uols...sumer bahan tu takde...so sebab ai malas nak on tenet nak check resepi dalam tenet ai pun main campak2 jelah apa yg ada...heheh..

gigih tuh tgk resepi bagai walaupunnnn...

So campak butter, telur, caster sugar and brown sugar, lemon juice, soda bikarbonat ngan tepung gandum...ni sumer resepi sendiri tawww..ai main campak2 jer mana yg ada kat dapur...ai check self-raising flour ada tapi dah expired katernye...pastu ai tengok walnut ada satu packet...nak letak tengok dah expired...muahaha..sumer dah expired...seb baik tuan dia belum expired...eh belum ke...muahaha..then kaco sampai sebati..

yg putih2 kat bekas tuh tepung gandum yg ai tabur lepas letak butter tak nak bagi lekat kek

And then terus masuk dalam oven...apa lagi bakar ler...

motif gambo2 nih pun nak amek..heheh..

Pastu sambil tunggu masak ai ym ngan mila yg kat JB tu..bestfren ai masa kat penang dulu..tunggu masak tak masak..masak tak masak..berapa jam nak kena bakar nih..hihi..so akhirnya walaupun lembap ai anggap kek nih dah masak ler..Actually memang dah agak dah sebab banyak letak pisang...so ai pun tukar ler nama kuih nih..jadi ler cekodok pisang bakar...heheh...biler dah masak memang moist giler...so inilah hasilnyer...

gelap jer cekodok pisang bakar nih..hiks..

jemput makan uolsssssssssssss

More Than Words

2008-12-15T00:51:00.004+08:00

I'm supposed to sleep early tonite tapi mata nih tak boleh lelap pulak dahh...so merayap2 sana sini...pastu tengok blog sendiri pun dah lama tak berhapdet kekdahnyer...

Naper ntah tetiba lagu Leaving On A Jet Plane terngiang2 di telinga mak...pastu rajin ler pulak cari youtube lagu ni...tapi youtube pulak buat hal...takleh bukak...so mak tepek je lirik dia hoccay..the original version lagu ni by John Denver but I think I like Linda Nanuwil's version better..pengaruh AF kan uols..lagipun John Denver tu ala2 geek sket kannn uols..heheh...macam Beverly Hillbillies kan...hiks..yang mak tau John Denver ni nyanyi lagu Take Me Home Country Road tu ajer..lain tak tau..tau pun sebab zaman kecik2 ahkak mak ader pasang lagu dia nih..heheh..erkkk..tak boleh citer banyak2 kan korang tau mak nih dah kertu...muahaha...

John Denver

Leaving On A Jet Plane
All my bags are packed
Im ready to go
Im standin here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin
Its early morn
The taxis waitin
Hes blowin his horn
Already Im so lonesome
I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Theres so many times Ive let you down
So many times Ive played around
I tell you now, they dont mean a thing
Evry place I go, Ill think of you
Evry song I sing, Ill sing for you
When I come back, Ill bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
Then close your eyes
Ill be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I wont have to leave alone
About the times, I wont have to say

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

But, Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Tapi actually kan uols sampai sekarang lagu fav mak masih lagi tak berubah dari dulu dan selamanya..aper lagu tuh..drum rollss pls...More Than Words by Extreme..by Extreme hoccay..not by any other bands or singers...ai geli dgr version lain esp yg westlife cover tu...nobody can beat Extreme in singing this song yer..

Extreme

More Than Words
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos Id already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now Ive tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close dont ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos Id already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

I think I'd better go to sleep...kan tak terbangun besok...aiseyman naper ler mata nih segar bugar pepagi buta nihhh...

What in The World???

2008-12-11T00:53:00.010+08:00

I was blog-hopping and came across this blog post by Patrick Teoh and soon found myself laughing so hard that tears were running down my face. Adeh, sakit perut ketawa... I gotta..no, I NEED to share this with my readers (walaupun boleh dibilang dengan jari, katernyer)...Lor, what in the world is happening to our english? To say this is atrocious is an understatement! Read on people and tell me what do you think. It's a bit long and all credit goes to Patrick Teoh for sharing this with his readers. I hope he doesn't mind me putting this on my blog.

It's a page from the official website of the National Registration Department or Jabatan Pendaftaran Negara Malaysia:-

1. I'm 17 year old, when should I change my identity card replacement?
A person whose had got first-time identity card namely during old 12 year, are required change again his identity card when have reached the age 18 year. If this change made within life time 18 - 25 year, no any penalty imposed.

2. I already 25 year old and still not have my own identity card. What shoul I do?
To them not yet own identity card although already aged more 16 year are advised to come to any nearby NRD to apply identity card past record. Applicant and promoter must showed up together to be interviewed, bringing with together following documents:- Applicant Born Certificate (tu dia..born certificate katernyer..hiks..)/ AnakAngkat's Certificate / W's Form Or Applicant Enter Permit / Confirmation Form National Standard(if concerning) Promoter Identity Card

3. I a foreign citizens and have gotten permit of entry from Jabatan Immigration Malaysia. Whether I qualified to apply identity card? What is conditions for I apply identity card.
You qualified to apply identity card with permanent resident status(Red). Applications requirements is bringing with permit of entry and passport and copy both of them and application fee as many as RM 40.00. Applications can be made in NRD Putrajaya Headquarters and NRD Branches only.

4. Is there any payment am being imposed in case happened damage for chip in my identity card.
Chip damage who is not due to purposely destroyed, misuse and others within one year from the date of submission card is give replacement by free, and if card period has been held by the applicant exceeding one year, payment as many as RM 10.00 imposed.

5. How many payment am being imposed if I loss identity card?
Lost identity card would be charged follow loss number. Please see payment schedule.

6. How long MyKad's application period can be completed?
MyKad can be completed within 24 hours as applicant whose opted to take MyKad in NRD Putrajaya headquarters. For applicant opted to take MyKad in any NRD branches office in Peninsula of Malaysia, then MyKad would be completed within 10 working day while 30 working day for applicant opted to take MyKad in any NRD branches office in Sabah, a Sarawak or Labuan. MyKad's charter completed this only involve applications from Warganegara Malaysia and prayer not problematical only.

7. Could I change address without change my identity card?
If I can how many rates imposed? Yes. With payment RM2.00 and new address information would be updated inside chip. If you want change identity card one time, the charge is RM10.00 .

8. Is it NRD receive payment other than cash ?
Yes, NRD comply accept payment electronically namely via credit card, card debit and MEPS. However, there were limit minimum sum accept to payment via credit card there is as many as RM 50.0

# What is NRD's website?

NRD website is abbreviation to official web National Registration Department. NRD website make major world to information and national registration department service through Internet.

# Why this website been created?

Latterly, information and service majority National Registration Department has been prepared by online and NRD website been created to provide convenience to the public find information and service that are provided.

# Whom were allowed surf and use this website ?

Generally, this website could be achieved by all society. However, there were some information and service that need registration.

# What is privacy policy for this website? Am I been recorded or not?

All access and your use up on this website shall not be recorded. To further information, please visit to 'Privacy Policy And Safety Policy' in bottom of each page.

# What method for I contact National Registration Department?

You can contact us:-
Public Relations Office
Tel: 03-8880 8206 / 7071 / 7077 / 7067 / 7069
Fax: 03-8880 8288 atau
Email: pro@jpn.gov.my

# How should I sent my feedback to Goverment Agencies?

You can fill form in the division "Public Complaint System " In NRD website. It would be channelled to the divisions relating.

So what do you think guys? Blame it on the education system?

Those Were The Days

2008-12-09T01:00:00.010+08:00

From being lazy I decided to blog about something that is close to my heart.

Before joining pepari n rizfc I used to read books, in fact, I was addicted to reading. I couldn't live without books...I ate, slept, breathed books...yes people, I was a book junkie.

It started while I was a kid...I would read all the books at home...I remember reading a book entitled Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa for want of something to read...muahaha...and I would go to the library every day to read and borrow books. I simply love Enid Blyton's books at that time. I think I have read all her books, not only the adventures ones but all kinds of titles. She must have hundreds of them!

Enid blyton

Some of Enid Blyton's works

At that time I also read comics. I remember reading The Adventures of Tintin and laughing my head off at Tintin and captain Haddock's antics. And not to forget the Thompson Twins! Heheh...They can still make me laugh even now.

The Cast of Tintin

And of course we have our very own Dato' Lat. I love Lat's comics like Kampung Boy and such...who can forget such characters like mamat and epit..

Then my taste matured somewhat...I began to read Harold Robbins's books and such...all kinds of books that I managed to get my hands into at the library...Then my sister brought home Mills & Boons' books (or trash as my brother used to say) and there began my love affair with MB. I love reading MB because the books aren't taxing to read and I can finish a book at one go.

Then while in college I think I read more romance than the books that I should be reading...heheh...then while working I discovered authors like Susan Elizabeth Philips, Karen Robards, Lisa Kleypas etc. Then coming back to my hometown I was at a loose end until I stumbled upon ebay! Soon I was buying books online every month until I joined pepari and rizfc and suddenly I don't have time to read anymore...heheh..and save some money some more...heheh...

Now I find that I miss my books but I know I will neglect my virtual friends because once I continue with this hobby I tend to forget about other things till I finish a book.

And until now Susan Elizabeth Phillips remains a fav author of mine. Hmm...it's time to find her newest book and other authors' as well.

Lazy bug

2008-12-08T20:17:00.015+08:00

It has been a while I know. The fact is I'm just too plain lazy to do any blogging lately. Hmmm...that doesn't sound right...not just blogging but to do ANYTHING at all...heheh...blame it on the weather, people! muahaha..

Actually I was watching Buletin Utama but was very irritated by the male newsreader...errkk...do we say newsreader or newscaster...heheh...I think newsreader is more apt in this case. But seriously, what in the world was he mumbling about??? Pleaselah...you're a newsreader not a newsmumbler! (muahaha...I know there's no such word but I'm just too annoyed with TV3 for choosing him in the first place to read the prime time news! You should be reading not mumbling the newslah...hishhh...see people..things like this can easily annoy me...So in the end I just couldn't stand watching the news and decided to update my blog instead...muahaha...should I be thanking the man in question? heh...

So do I need to blog about my trip last week? Somehow writing about this man manages to excite me more than writing about our jalan-jalan to KL..heheh..We didn't do anything much except jalan-jalan to places like Ikea, Mid Valley Megamall, KLCC and so on. And rather than staying at our brother's place at Ampang, we decided to stay at Duta Vista instead. Here's a few pics of the place.

I didn't buy much this time around but managed to grab two handbags at Robinson. One is Nine West handbag just like Alys, my fellow KTLian suggested, (KTL-Kelab Takde Life-kelab underground @Pepari for people yg takde life like us..hiks..) and another is Cottonfield handbag.

Nine West

Cottonfield

My sister also bought two handbags but I forgot to snap pics of her bags. Other than that, bought some kitchen stuff at Ikea and baju2 for my neighbours who took care of my cats while we were away. Yes people, I breed cats...muahaha...I have a family of cats that seems to expand and expand and annoys my mom to no ends...heheh...but she's the one who takes care of them when I go to work. Actually she's the one who suggested that we have a cat to chase away the mice and she's the one who found a pair of them and what do you know suddenly we have 7 of them...heheh...and they dont' seem to do their jobs properly, heheh... and me being me, just couldn't help but to spoil them...muahaha...

Erkk...where was I? I do tend to get carried away when blogging, isn't it?... hiks...and btw while I was in KL, auntysms, a dear friend @rizfc send me two pics of my idol's new look...hensemmmm...thanks a lot aunty..here's the pics...

saper mamat hensem nih?

Nearly forgot to tepek this pic that I took on the way back..a very blurry pic of the scenery..hehe..

That's enough writing for someone who's bitten by the lazy bug I think...daaaaaaa

To Kolumpo Here I Come

2008-11-30T20:15:00.002+08:00

Guys..I won't be around for a few days..Nak cari life kekdahnyer..heheh..I'll be in KL for 4 days from Monday-Thursday. And no, I won't be online sebab sibuk dengan aktiviti nak membankrapkan diri uols..ai pun nak gak life..asyik2 takde life je manjang...jangan haraplah mak nak mengadap computer kat sana hoccayyyy...

Eh..harap2 dapat ler ai menggantikan handbag sedia ada, beli kasut for the new year, beli blouse baru, beli macam-macam lah..heheh..so peminat2 mak jangan bersedih ek..tunggu ler mak balik nanti mak hapdet...tu pun if I feel like it lahhh..kalu ai rajin ler ek uols..hiks..

Kalu ai tak berkenan ngan menda2 tu sumer tak kisah lah sebab nanti ai nak berjoli2 lagi kat kolumpo lepas boleh gaji bulan doblas nanti..muahaha..sian kan ai uols..orang lain pegi cuti2 kat London lah, Goldcoast lah, Sabah lah...ai jugak yg pegi Kl je..tu lah nasib orang ulu tempat jin bertendang ni..nak pegi kolumpo pun sexcited kannnnn...tetiba plak sedey nihhhh..so au revoir guys..heheh..ntah ler skrg ni feeling nak berbahasa perancis lak..hiks..

Je T'aime, Riz

2008-11-29T00:48:00.005+08:00

credit to heartnsoul

Wakakaka..naper aku rasa macam nak gelak guling2 tengok tajuk entry nih..heheh..well uols..akhirnya ai dah dapat tengok dan dengar single baru Riz..tajuk dia..Harusku Yang Pergi..best korang..walaupun frust sebab masa Riz nyanyi lagu ni dalam MHI arituh lagu ini cuma sekerat je pastu kuar segala credit siap dengan katering utk MHI sekali..heheh..nak buat macam manakan..dah dekat nak habes baru lagu ni keluar..korang ni sengaja tau perap dia suh nyanyi lagu ni last..tapi puas hati jugak sebab sebelum tu dia dah nyanyi lagu Hanya Sandiwara and then pastu siap ada sesi beramas mesra dgn tiga2 host MHI..walaupun ai lebih rela tengok dia sorang2 je conquer tv ai..heheh..

Alangkah bestnya kalu dapat dgr lagu ni sampai habehkan uols..but then lagu ni belum dilaunch lagi..so tunggu jelah kannn..so begitulah kekdahnyer..dengar lagu ni sekerat pun dah boleh feeling2 gitew..kalulah riz ni nyanyi lagu ballad sure mak meroyan sampai x hengat donia.. tak makan tak minum ler jawabnya uols..eh ok gak kan..at least kuruslah badan ai ni kan..hiks..

So pada sesiapa yg nak meroyan dgn ai silalah klik link ni ekk..credit to my dear friend at pepari, heartnsoul..jom merembes..muahaha..

http://www.youtube.com/user/heartsnsoul

A New Chapter

2008-11-28T14:54:00.010+08:00

So it's a new beginning of my life...

Got my wish granted a couple of days ago. Was so happy because didn't expect it. All of them said that my application was rejected so I sort of given up hope altogether. So I certainly didn't expect it...kena buat pulut kuning nanti tanda kesyukuran...

I'll be moving to another branch which is very near my house early next year. It's not that my office is that far... just 21 km from my house. It's just that I have to go to the office at nights and almost every weekend there's work to be done there. So I decided to ask for transfer... there's no harm isn't it in doing that? Kalau tak dapat tak apa...At least I tried...And that's what I did and what do you know...suddenly all the bosses treated me like a leper...macam hinanya aku just because I asked for transfer. I've had it disindir2 masa meeting oleh my bosses...ayat2 seperti "hah nanti kalau awak tak dapat tukar siaplah awak...banyaklah kerja yang kami bagi kat awak"..."awak utamakan diri awak..awak pentingkan diri sendiri..bla bla bla..." Pedihnya telinga aku masa itu tapi terima ajelah..I just sort of resigned to the situation...redha je...sometimes I wonder sia-siakah pengorbanan aku selama ini...selama ini dipuji tapi bila jadi macam ni dikeji...and then I heard that they called up those in charge of the transfer and asked them not to release me...masa tu aku memang dah patah semangat tapi aku pujuk diri sendiri...

They did change their tune lately...asking me to rethink my decision...of how difficult it is to find anyone to replace me...of how they still need my service..asking me to stay on another year...as if I care anymore...and then came this good news...alhamdulillah...I'm so thankful...syukur sangat2...

It has not been easy for me these few years doing something that I really had to force myself into. How I've wept gallons of tears at leaving KL..it's not leaving KL but leaving the job that I really, really love...something that I really love doing, because of family obligations...leaving close friends behind...how I wasted a year of my life after that just feeling sorry with myself and regretting my moment of weakness in agreeing to do something totally against my nature.

But I've promised myself no more regrets. Live life to the fullest... cliche I know but that's what I intend to do...I'm enjoying life now. There are so many things going on in my mind at present..I'll miss my colleagues certainly...but I'll be starting a new chapter in my life...and I have my virtual friends who keeps me sane...heheh..sane ke insane...

Alhamdulillah...

Gedebok

2008-11-24T19:03:00.012+08:00

Arghhhhhhhhhhhh...I really need to lose some weight...no, make it a looooot of weight. The pressure is on ever since I met an old friend a few weeks back and the first words that came out of her mouth were "wohh bakpe gemuk sangat nihhh.." Arghhhhhh...muahaha..tensennnn tawww..

One of my colleagues did ask to join her at Slimworld at Kuantan and I was thinking like 'waaahhh a lot of fulus lahh this lady" and yesss, I rather spend my money on cakes and such..heheh..and can you guess my answer uols..hiks..

I remember a few months back before yoga was banned, a colleague asked me to join her yoga class and as usual I was full of excuses. Another friend asked me to tag along to her aerobic class and I said I'll think about it..and I'm still thinking..heheh..until the day came when I could longer stand looking at myself in front of the mirror and what did I do? Why of course, bought myself some cakes and chocolate..stress maaa..need something to calm me down..muahaha..

And yesterday, when Mila (short for Lyudmila..not Mila AF eh uols..see Mila, i did say i would mention you in my blog..hiks..) chatted with me @YM, she mentioned that she had lost 3 kilos in 3 months [sori uols..3 kilos in 3 weekss..silap info..mila dah sound mak) thanks to the slimming programme that she took. She no longer eats rice but just takes a small portion of lauk every day..Well, Mila..I don't know how you do it but I don't think I can follow your diet..matiiiii ler weiii..muahaha..

But seriously I need to do something fast or else I'll be always remembered as this obese, vertically-challenged makcik..eeeeeeiiii...ngeriiiii..muahaha..and I need something or rather someone as an inspiration..erkkk..I don't think I can use Riz as my muse..muahaha..matilah mak terkutuk idol sendirikkk..

And before I sign off iklan jap ekk..

That was what I had just now..muahaha..all this stress has made me hungry ler uols..

And this is what I'll be having later..heheh..daaaaaa..

Scenery

2008-11-21T13:12:00.016+08:00

Rupanyer ader lagi gambo kat Teluk Mak Nik ngan Kuala Kemaman arituh yg aku belum letak sini..so tepek jelah..and then ader sket2 gambo kat Hutan Paya Bakau yg aku amek semalam..masa tu nak gi isi minyak pastu gi singgah kat situ jap..snap2 gitew..eh utk pengetahuan korang sumer gambo yg aku amek kat sini guna hp kokak aku ni jer..takde guna kamera canggih2 sumer..so hasilnyer pun gitew2 jelah..dah ler kebanyakan gambo tu aku amek dlm keta jer..nak2 kat teluk mak nik tu sumer gambo aku amek dalam keta..malas ler uols..cam over lak kann..pastu nanti aper lak kata org yg ader kat situ..ehh makcik ni takde keja ke..heheh..

rumah yg dekat monica bay a.k.a teluk mak nik..hiks..

kedai kepok lekor ngan kepok keping kat jalan keluar dari teluk mak nik

adik ni tak tau aku curi2 amek gambo dia..takpe adik..glemer masuk blog syok sendiri ahkak ni..heheh..

sajer amek gambo..ni dia org wat utk sukma arituh..

ni gambo kat hutan paya bakau lak..hujan masa tu..

kat sini bukan untuk bermandi-manda uols ek..dia org main kayak n bot jer kat sini..

hah ni botnyer..ader lagi sebelah tu tapi sebab tgh hujan malas ler aku nak kuar amek gambo..

ni aku kuar jap amek gambo..ni pun tengah hujan..gigih tu..

aper nih amek gambo tiang letrik..hihi..

yang ini elok sket kot gambo dia..yg lain sumer mcm budak sekolah yg amek gambo kannn..

dan lagi...

tu jelah uols..

eh..aku ingat lagi time gini gak tahun lepas aku ngan member2 aku gi makan western food kat restoran atas titi kat paya bakau ni..alaaa lupa lak nak snap gambo kedai tuh..baru je kitorang order makanan hujan turun ngan lebat giler..petir sabung menyabung..ngan guruh berdetum sumer..heheh ader sound effect tuh..

masa tu sumer muka cuak sebab kedai tu kan atas air..gerak situ gerak sini ikut angin..kusss semangat..aku leh ler gelak kalu teringat kesah tu tapi masa tu memang kitorang ingat kedai tu dah nak tenggelam uols..takde tempat dah nak lari..nak lari kat keta kena lalu titi tu dulu..lagi ler takut sebab angin tengah kuat giler..aku tak tau nak describe perasaan masing2 masa tuh..heheh..

lama ler jugak duk camtuh..aku masa tu cam histeria pun ader sebab gelak giler vavi tgk muka2 cuak member2 aku tuh..kitorang lari2 anak round kedai tu nak ngelak dari kena hujan tapi sumer tempat kena hujan..muahaha..tapi yg heran tu ader couple yg tengah dating tu relax je duk tengah2 kedai tu walaupun aku tgk cam basah kuyup gak dia org tu..heheh..

akhirnyer hujan tu reda sket..pastu makanan sampai..dlm basah2 tu kitorang leh makan lak kat situ..heheh..tapi masa tu aku tak tahan ler nak gelak..kitorang makan sambil gelak tapi dalam hati tuhan sajer yg tau..muahaha..giler biler ingat balik..

Hunks

2008-11-19T21:41:00.007+08:00

Giler takde keja..so tepek ler gambo yg mak taste..heheh..

Dun wori Riz..ko sentiasa akan mengungguli carta ai..hiks..

Merapu

2008-11-18T13:26:00.003+08:00

Hari ni aku cam rajin sket nak menulis tapi takde idea ler pulok nak tulis aper..bole..heheh..so aku nak merapu ler kekdahnyer..tulis aper je yg terlintas dalam kepala hotak aku sekarang ni..

Sibuk betul ler peminat2 aku biler aku tulis jiwengs nih..naper..takleh ke aku nak berjiwengs sekali sekala..aku pun manusia biasa yg ada hati dan perasaan uols..wpun hatiku byk kat mamat greek tuh skrg..eh.eh silap..muahaha..

Ok pasal nama blog aku tuh TAKDE LIFE bukan maksudnya aku takde life and tak puas hati ngan hidup aku..yg aku memang takde life tu betul ler kot..muahaha..actually ungkapan nih..wahhh ungkapan...aku amek dari umah pepari..dia org tu kekadang biol sket and suka ckp kitorg ni takde life sebab asyik duk bertenggek kat saner..walaupun ungkapan tuh betul..hiks..so aku rasa cam best jer and so aku jadikan tajuk blog aku..kira nak jadikan tagline pun bole..

So sesapa yg nak masuk AF7 nanti silakan mak alu2kan kalu nak guna tagline ni..takde hakcipta terpelihara okke uols..kalu korang guna tagline ni masuk AF sure mak undi habis2an..muflis pun takpe..mak redha..muahaha..

Satu lagi kan kalu ler kengkawan aku kat opis lama baca blog aku nih mesti dia orang menyumpah aku..yelah guna bahasa rojak kannn..dahler rojak or dlm bahasa yg lebih eloknyer Manglish..ala cam singaporeans Singlish tuh..campur pulak ngan bahasa internet yg ejaannyer haru biru ditambah lak ngan ayat2 fonen untuk menambah kesedapan dan menambah perencah kan uols..heheh..

Kisahnyer mak ni dulu ala2 pejuang bahasa gak ler..keja pun kat tempat macam tu..nak tau mak keja katner dulu..alaa tempat yg terbitkan kartun Lat kat Jerman tu..yg masuk majalah 3 baru2 ni..teruja kejap tgk member2 lama masuk tv pegi Jerman arituh..dengki pun ada..heheh..aku ingat my MD dulu cakap..guna bahasa Melayu 100% atau bahasa Inggeris 100%..pilih antara dua..jangan campur2..itu mencemar bahasa maknanya..lebih kurang gitu ler ayat dia..aku pun dah lupa..dah berzaman kekdahnyer..

Dulu pun kitorang memang tak setuju guna bahasa Inggeris dalam pengajaran Sains dan Matematik tapi kita kan saper..pejuang bahasa macam nik safiah karim pun takde org nak dengar lagi ler kita kannn..

So sekarang sibuk ngan isu PPSMI (pengajaran sains & matematik dlm BI)tu berjaya ke tak dlm paper..mak dah feeling2 sendu nak amek pot pasal menda tuh..nak kecoh2 sekarang apsal..masa nak laksanakan dulu ader korang amek pot pandangan pakar2 bahasa..ek eleh..dah banyak mana duit habis takkan ler nak patah balik kannn..

Eh serius lak topik arinih..koser ni..nak gostan balik ler..muahaha..

Pastu aku ada terbaca posting sweetyaya or panggilan manja dia Gurgurl pasal minat atau kagum dalam blog dia..memang aku pun terkagum ngan minah ni..terer betul ko ek gurgurl..bole terfikir menda macam tuh..tapi betul ler apa yang gurgurl tu cakap..aku ni pun memang minat ramai artis kat dunia ni tapi satu jer aku meroyan..saper lagi kalu bukan mamat greek tuh..muahaha..eh meroyan ke..dulu ler..sekarang dah kureng sket tahap meroyan tuh sebab aku dah kontrol ayu..heheh..

Satu lagi aku nak cakap pasal lagu Riz tu..Hanya Sandiwara..lagu tu memang susah nak naik sebenarnya sebab melodi dia tak tangkap lentok sedangkan org Msia ni suka lagu ala2 sentimental value gitu..aku paham ler citarasa masing2 kan..maner bole paksa..tapi aku harap single terbaru Riz ni tangkap jiwangs, leleh, lentok sumer dan bole ler menaikkan nama dia..bukannya aper..aku kesian gak artis kat Msia nih..ada tu sore best tapi sebab dapat lagu yg tak best terus senyap tak dengar khabar berita.. tapi kalu org yg sore tak seberapa tapi dapat lagu best and yg penting hari2 masuk paper (hari2 ke..overnye statement ni kan..hihi..) mulalah mencanak naik nama tapi biler nyanyi live baru ler tau bakat dia setakat maner kannnn..

Tapi menda ni kadang2 berkaitan ngan nasib dan rezeki gak kan..cam mawi tu kan uols..saperlah kita nak menidakkan rezeki yg Tuhan bagi kan..cuma usaha tu penting ler..

Pastu satu lagi kenapa ler susah sangat aku nak dengar lagu mamat greek ni kat radio ek..masa Hanya Sandiwara tu jangan harap ler aku bole dengar lagu ni..seb baek ler dah download kalu tak..hishhh..download2 gak tapi kalu kuar album nanti kena beli ek uols..pastu bole gak beli wat hadiah sempena besday kawan ke, tunang ke, hubby ke..hiks..nak mampus..

Single baru Riz nih pun aku belum dengar lagi..katanya tajuk dia Harusku Yg Pergi Dulu..aku pun tak sure single ni ke yg yg kuar dulu..tapi masalahnyer tak penah dengar camner nak tau kan..puas dah pasang radio tapi tak penah on air nak wat camner kan..betul ke dah released ni uols..dah ler aku bukan suka sangat dengar era ke..hotfm ke..sbb tak koser ngan dj2 tu sumer..aku lagi suka dengar hitsfm..entah..cam best lak dengar joke2 dj hits yg otak biul tu..tapi dah berkurun ler aku tak dgr hits sebab nak bagi sokongan kat mamat greek tu..chewahhh..

Pastu kan..semalam aku tepek live traffic feed kat blog nih..sebab alys tu slalu cakap pepari je yg baca blog aku..kalu tak takde org ler yg masuk sini..so alysss..and D also..korang jgn ingat takde org sudi baca blog ni..itu sumer pitnah semata2..mak pun ader peminat tawww..ekekeke

Wah panjang gak posting aku kali nih ekk..cukup ler dulu..nanti aku sambung merapu meraban di lain hari di lain waktu..

Life

2008-11-14T20:42:00.014+08:00

Things happen for a reason is it..
so I'll accept my life as it is
I'll accept anything that comes my way
I won't let anything to pull me down the pit
I have come this far
not without scratches and deep wounds along the way
I won't let anything to pull me down into the dark holes that I've been before
I have to be strong
Not for anyone else but for me
Yes, for me alone..
I'll get by
Because this life, full of sorrow as it is,
is the only life I have
is the only life that I know
And I will celebrate life such as it is..

Note: All the pics were taken at Pantai Teluk Mak Nik this morning..somehow I think the pics are suitable with what I've written above..I don't know why..started to write something else but ended up with something totally different from what I had in mind..oh well..sometimes life does get to you..

Gambo

2008-11-10T18:55:00.011+08:00

Lamanyer tak post aper2..tapi still malas gak..heheh..oleh sebab penyakit malas yg menimpa nih aku tepek gambo2 dlm collection aku jelah ekk..

takde keja..amek gambo dlm keta..spotlight tuh sbb ada funfair kat depan tuh..aku bole stop depan balai polis tuh amek gambo nih..giler takde keja..dekat sangat ngan umah aku nih..

mat saleh sesat maner pulak nihhhh..heheh..

eh..abang nih kacau ler..eh camner bendera pas boleh ada kat atas tuh..lusuh pulak tuh..muahaha..

comelnyer anak jiran aku nih..

nasi dagang jiran aku bagi..

nasi..

acar timun..or korang panggil jelatah kan..

gulai ikan aya a.k.a ikan tongkol..kita punya nasi dagang tak sama ngan nasi dagang kelantan okke..

eh camner boleh terselit kuih raya yg paling laku arituh..muahaha..mama carrey..sekejap jer dah abeh..tak sampai sehari..ni tempah ngan member..ahkak dia wat sendiri..tak tau ler best ke tak..aku bab2 kuih raya nih kureng sket ler..

Kena tag

2008-11-07T20:23:00.003+08:00

Kopi, blogger yg sama2 minat si riz nih bole mengetag aku lak..aku ni dah ler tgh kena penyakit..penyakit malas..heheh..

Kopi..ahkak copy paste gambo tuh dulu ajelah..kalu rajin ahkak jawab ler soklan tuh..kalu malas jawabnyer nilah hasil tag tuh..heheh..sabo jelah kopi oiii..

Year End Events

2008-11-05T19:35:00.011+08:00

Fav pic of the moment

credit to azlandaniel..thx lannnn..

Wahhh..tengok tuh..tajuk macam annual report syarikat lakk..skema semacam..heheh..

So tomorrow I have to leave the house as early as 6.45 a.m. for Kuala Ibai. There's a big event at the office tomorrow but tetiba jer I have to attend another event at Kuala Ibai..but in a way its a mixed blessinglah since if I am at the office for sure I have to be the coolie..heheh..no lah.. each of us was kelam kelibut tadi buat rehearsal semua and even though I soo wanted to be there (yolah tuuu..) I rather be somewhere else far, far away..muahaha..hopefully we'll arrive there before 9 a.m. since I heard that traffic will be heavy with macam2 event berlangsung because of the Terengganu Endurance tuh..

And talking about the Endurance tuh..memula tuh memang rasa macam nak pegi becauseeeeee.... cuba korang tekaaaa ada apa kat sanerrrrr..yessss..ada rizzzzzzz.. but since on Saturday I have to be at the office for another event..yessss..another one.. hishhhh..and on Friday I have to go to Kuantan nak servis keta so cancel ler plan nih..dah ler Endurance tuh kat Lembah Bidong, Setiu yg jauhnya sama je cam I pegi Kl last week..and latest news tak tau riz jadi tak kat situ sebab clash ngan Hotfm punya show kat Sg Petani..so better not take that risk..and lagi satu as my boss pernah tanya kitorang..mana lebih penting..kerjaya or diri sendiri..so sebagai pekerja yang gemilang terbilang bla bla bla tuh I utamakan ler keja dulu..ngadenye..

Eh btw kalu ai pegi pun tgk riz tuh ai pegi as undercover agent okke..and amek gambo dari jauh jer..ai takkan pegi dekat punya..muahaha..ai phobia sket bab2 nihh..sket kerrrrr..bukan banyakkkk..muahaha..Eh dah 3 kali weekends I ada life..tak sangkaaa..heheh..

And uols..there's another pic of riz that I like..Lan..cilok satu lagi gambo boleeee..bole ekk..tenkiuuuuu..muahhhhh..

Erkkk..nih fansite ke apa nihhh..bukan personal blog ke..heheh..

P/s: So US creates history today..congrats Obama!

A Trip to Remember

2008-11-03T19:40:00.005+08:00

Muahaha..over takkk title tuhh..over kannnn..

Lama betul kan aku tak hapdet blog nih..mula2 tuh hari2 aku hapdet..semangat katanya..heheh..siap ada peminat tanya lagi naper lama tak hapdet..so dash..posting nih aku tujukan khas buat ko..terharu gitew ko nak gak baca citer aku ekkk..lap u dashhhhh..hidup dajammmmmmmm..muahaha..

Okke khamis lepas aku pegi kl..bertolak dlm pukul 2.30 and sampai gombak pukul 5.30..laju tak aku bawak uols..sama je macam aku pegi kuala tganu minggu lepas..masa tuh byk keta..ni tak byk keta..pastukan ada gangguan lite2 dari sorang model nih..sket2 call..sket2 call.. nak jumpa katanya..ishhh..segan ler aku nak jumpa model sorang nih..aku nih dah le kertu..taraf makcik2 kampung sajork..pastu rendang tak berbuah lak..kan pengsan ko nyahhh..heheh..

Rockmama pun ada call nak jumpa sebab aku ada bagitau dia aku nak pegi kl..tapi aku sebenarnya pemalu uols..muahaha..betul ke aku pemalu nihhh..mcm statement artis2 yg aku baca dlm paper..ckp dia org pemalu ler..penyegan ler..hellooo..camner korang pemalu kalu bole nyanyi2 berlakon2 depan org..ehhh melalut lakkk..heheh..

So sori ye uols..tak koser taw nak jumpa org2 glemer nih..mak tak glemer kekdahnyer..muahaha..

Pastu kan uols kawan2 lama aku kat kl pun aku tak sempat nak jumpa taww..sbb nak kejar masa kekdahnyer..takpe ekk uols..nanti ai free sure ai pegi lagi kl tuh..dekat jer kannn..eh aku nih artis ke perasan sumer org nak jumpa nih..eh korang nak bergambo2 ngan aku ke..nak otograp takkk..hik..

Sebenarnya ada 2 benda yg berlaku masa aku kat kl..dua2 menda yg tak penah aku imagine akan berlaku kat aku..over gitew..

Satu tuh buat aku hepi bangetttttt..memang tak leh tido uols..tido pun sengih jerrrrrr..muahaha..

Satu lagi menda yg buat aku sakit hati, tensen, nak menyumpah pun ada..eeeeeee..kalu ingat memang sakit hatiii..so baik aku buat tak ingat..aku tak penah lagi kena macam tuh..hahhh..yg nih pun buat aku tak leh tido mlm tuh..seb baek sbb penat giler vavi so lelap jugak ler aku..so dua2 mlm ada jer menda yg menggangu tidur kuuuuu..

Aku pegi kl tuh sebab temankan kawan aku yg ada hal kat UM..aku beria2 bagitau kawan aku nih wajib pegi pavillion and the garden midvalley..blm penah pegi lagi kannn..org kampung ler katakannnnn..

Pastu ptg tuh smpai je kat kl kitorg cuma sempat makan and menapak kat sogo jap..pastu sogo dah nak tutup uols..tak sempat nak shopping2..cuma sempat beli 2 blouse je..koser..

Pastu pagi2 jumaat tuh pas breakfast kitorg dah bertolak pegi UM..ehh..lupa nak cakap..kitorg stay kat hotel dpn maju junction tuh..wpun dua2 ada abg kat kl tapi tak koser nak pegi umah dia org..nanti tak bebas nak pegi mana2..heheh..pastu nanti ada budak2 kecik nak mengekor lakk..

Teringat sekali tuh masa aku duk kl abang aku call aku dlm pukul 10pm..masa tuh aku takde kat umah..marah ler dia kat aku..kena sound sbb kuar mlm2..dia tak tau adik dia nih dah biasa balik umah lewat dari tuh lagi..heheh..

Berbalik pada topik di atas..lepas settle hal kawan aku tuh..dah tengah hari dah..so kitorg nak kejar masa and decided tak nak pegi klcc ke..pavillion ke..sbb tak sempat..so pegi jusco ajer..aku beli sandal primavera kat situ..murah sajork..ada sale..pastu kawan aku nak pegi carrefour wangsa maju sebab ada baju yg dia nak beli kat kedai luar tuh utk dinner dia..kat situ aku ada le beli brooch..dlm 5 brooch kot..pastu beli 2 lagi blouse kat kedai kat luar..heheh..

Pastu balik jer kitorg pegi singgah jalan TAR..menapak lagi..aku ada ler beli kain 4 pasang..pastu kitorg dah tak larat dah..tak sanggup..camner nih..kata nak pegi tempat2 grand..

Besok tuh kitorg pegi sogo lagi..aku sempat ler beli 2 blouse lagi sbb yg aku beli mlm tuh tak muat..muahaha..tak sempat try ler uols..so balik nanti aku kena ler sedekah blouse2 tuh kat saper2..seb baek murah..sale katakannn..pastu sempat beli perfume D&G..apa lagi ekk..takde ler kot..

So lepas tuh kitorg pun bertolak balik..dlm pukul 2pm..sampai pukul 5pm..kepenatan uols..

Yg geramnya besoknya aku pegi keja kena panggil ngan boss sebab sebenarnya opis aku ada dinner kat cherating jumaat mlm tuh..hasilnya aku kena buat surat tunjuk sebab pasal tak attend dinner..bolewww..seb baek bukan aku sajer yg tak pegi..ramai uols..dlm 20 org..mencikkkkkk tawww..boring ah aku ngan mak tiri tuh..susah taw kalu dpt boss pompuan nih..ada ke tak pegi dinner kena buat surat tunjuk sebab..dah ler kitorg sumer bayar duit dinner tuh..bukan tak bayar..hishhhhh..

Okke..tu aje citer aku psl shopping2 nih..yg pasti aku dah pokai nih uols..makkkk..camner nihhhhhh..ehhh lupa..hujung bulan nanti nak pegi lagi kl ngan family..my sis dah suruh aku simpan duit nak shopping2..katanya nak duk hotel kat putrajaya..camner tuhhh..maner nak korek duittt..heheh..

Riz @ Kemuncak Aidil Fitri

2008-10-29T22:11:00.006+08:00

Well..tadi masa aku online je aunty buzz aku mintak tolong tepek gambo kat forum riz's angels..so aku okke jer..kecik tapak tangan..sila sambung sendiri okke..heheh..so nilah hasilnya..thx auntyyyyy..kenyang tengok gambo nihh..muahaha..

Eh..aku nak amek kesempatan ini utk wish hepi besday to lalink sarah..my fellow pepari..sori ekk sarah lambat wish..have a very happy besday and may all your dreams come true sarah..such as becoming mrs.torres..ekekeke..

nah amek kek..

Riz @15

2008-10-28T23:52:00.004+08:00

Malasnyer..tapi sbb tak nak menghampakan permintaan dari peminat2 aku..kan alys kannn..heheh..maka aku tulis ler sket2 kat sini hoccay..berlagak nihhhh...

Ptg tadi ksweet post kat pepari riz nak chat kat @15 mlm nih..kul 8.30 katanya..so aku pun tunggu le dia masuk..tapi dlm duk tunggu2 tuh sempat main2 sms ngan kekawan tgk2 dia dah ada..biler ntah dia masuk..heheh..

Pastu aku tgk karpet bukan main laju giler..aku nampak ler peminat setia riz kat sana..kakjahku a.k.a pijahsayangmama..heheh..pastu ada crownriz a.k.a shasha yg glemer tuh..siap anto gambo dia ngan riz lagi kat situ..lieahashim org kuat rizfc pun ada..

Yg kelakarnya rockmama siap merajuk2 lagi sbb riz tak nampak msg dia..aku perasan riz nih kalu kakjahku tuh kan main lagi dia layan..muahaha..

Pastu Riz seperti biasa menghilang dari karpet tuh..lama jugak..pegi toilet..lama pulak tuhh..masuk2 je dia tanya rockmama still ada lagi ke..aku pun sms rockmama ckp riz cari dia..terus mama masuk chat balik..so riz layan le mama..heheh..bole gitew..

Yg pastinya aku takdenyer nak chat kat @15 tuh..malas ler aku..tak koser..tgk je..

Tapi ada info yg riz bagi tadi..

1. Single baru dia mungkin kuar bulan depan..dia mintak fans dia doa2kan mintak2 jadi le..

apa lagi ek..

2. Dia ada pegi penang arituh 2 hari..so sbb tu dia tak boleh luangkan masa kat majlis seloka nadia tuh..eh lupa nak cakap nadia pun ada chat tadi..

3. Nadia cakap riz ada set rambut..rebonding gitew..nadia ngan mp (aku tak suka mp hoccay..hipo giler) usik2 riz psl rambut baru dia tuh tapi riz tak layan..heheh..

Yang aku perasan masa dia masuk balik dia cakap dia pegi toilet..toilet apa riz lama giler..aku pasan masa dia masuk balik si mp tuh pun masuk balik..siap cakap lagi riz nih rupanya baik orangnya..lepas borak baru tau..tapi aku tak percaya kata2 mp nih..dia kan pandai bermuka2 dpn org..mati aku kalu mp masuk sini..huhuhh..ada ke mod glemer nak masuk sini..perasannnn..

Okke..tu aje kot..lupa ler apa lagi dia org borak..eh tapi tadi riz ader layan peminat2 dia yg ajak pegi dating..gatal gak ko riz ekk..muahaha..

Apa lagi ekk..aku dah tak ingat apa lagi dia org chat..so ciao cincau..muahhhh..

Greeting Earthlings

2008-10-27T13:45:00.007+08:00

Welkam Pepari..welkammm..heheh

Angel Food Cake with strawberry, blueberry and orange sauce

Heheh..jemput masuk uols..terharu gitew korang sanggup mencemar duli kat blog syok sendiri aku nih..kan alysss kannn..muahaha..

Yelah..jenuh aku pomot kat umah pepari..terpaksa ler korang masuk sini kann..nanti kan kecik ati lakkk..

So posting nih mak tujukan khas buat Pepari yg masuk siniii..

Dash..yelah kad raya ko tuh Riz siap tulis nama ko lagi kannn..takpe nyah..mak tak jeles nyahhh..ye ke tak jeles nihhh..heheh..

Gurgurl..ko ler org pertama masuk chatbox mak tawww..

Sarah..ko ler org pertama tinggal komen kat comment aku tawww..

Qis..ko ler org pertama tau psl blog syok sendiri nih..and org pertama link blog mak nihhh..muahaha..sumer pertama2 gitew.

Alys..motif ko ckp blog aku nih syok sendiri..tapi aku terharu ler ko sudi gak masuk sini wpun sibuk ngan open house kannn..

DDDDDDDDDDD..oohhh..masuk umah pepari jadi SR je ekkkkk smlm..aku takdenye nak tepek2 gambo aku kat sini nyahh..kan peminat2 aku lari pas tgk gambo aku..koser..

Anje..motif wish devali kat makkk..mak takde bf india tawww..

Heart..tenkiu sudi mencemar duli kat sini..thx 4 the vc yaa..

Hide..ko pun sudi masuk sini nyahhh..wahhh nak nanges nihhh..

Anne..so aku memang takde life..nak wat camner..uwaaaaa..

Damia..cantik kannn background nihh..heheh..

Ksweet a.k.a. penaung..tenkiuuuu mintak link tuhhh..tak sangka taw org kuat riz nih sudi tanya sal blog akuuuuuu..

Ehemmm...

2008-10-26T22:51:00.007+08:00

Muahaha..over takkk..actually gambo2 nih dah lama ada ngan aku..cuma aku malas je nak scan bagai..sebabnya aku tak penah pun scan n upload gambo dlm internet..biasanya aku snap guna hp kokak aku je pastu tepek kat porem..heheh..lagipun aku tak tau guna scanner nihh..bole gitewww..scanner ada tapi tak tau nak pakai..so malam nih aku cuba ler..rupa2nya senang giler uolss..clear gitewww..muahaha..tu ler..lenkali explore ler wehh..apa nih beli watper kalu malas nak guna..

3-in-1

2008-10-25T20:26:00.007+08:00

Favourite pic of the moment..

Of Being a Riz's AF6 Fan

Heheh..ermm camner nak mula ekkk..aku mula2 tuh tak perasan pun si riz dalam konsert af6 nih sebab aku tak tgk mana pun menda alah ni..bila aku tau je AC mizal yg akan jadi host aku pun terus takde mood nak tgk af tahun ni..potong stim betul..so aku tak pokes konsert af n diary nih memula tuhhh..

Pastu camner ntah aku boleh suka kat riz nih..aku pun tak pasti bila..for sure bukan awal2 af ler..masa konsert bila ntah..yg aku ingat aku cam nyampah tgk diary yg asyik cari salah si riz nih pastu aku mula ler pokes kat dia..kira cam nak tlg insan yg teraniaya ler..heheh..

Pastu aku pun dah ala2 minat lak kat dia..smpai ler skrg..heheh..mulalah beli paper n mags yg ada gambo dia..gigih tuuu..muahaha..berporem sampai tak ingat donia..pastu perasan lah yg dia tuh kita yg punya..bole?..heheh..nih ala2 minat je ke dah parah nihhh..muahaha..tak kesah ler..mak tak kesah nyahhh asal mak tak kaco org..

Hah satu lagi kawan2 aku ramai yg tak suka dia..bila dia org tau aku suka mamat nih ada ler yg siap hantar sms nak ngutuk2..aku ingat lagi sekali tuh sampai nak gaduh lite2 ngan member lama aku kat kl tuhh..siap kuar ayat2 power gitew..seb baek aku cepat insap..kalu tak terputus ler hubungan kitorg yg dah berbelas tahun terpelihara tuhh..sori ekk H*****..ko nih mulut kdg2 ngalahkan pompuan tau..biasanya aku tak kecik ati ngan ngko sbb dah biasa tapi camner lak bila isu riz nih aku bole jadi sensitip gitew..muahaha..

One of the best thing about being his fan aku mula berjinak2 dlm dunia porem (spelt F-O-R-U-M heheh) and join fc lagiiiii..bole gitewwww..tak koser tawww..we'll get back to that later hoccay..heheh..so pasal minat punya pasal aku mulalah buat menda2 yg tak penah aku buat selama ini..such as terikut2 guna bahasa ntah apa2 kat internet nihhh..muahaha..eh asyik nak larik tajuk je aku nihhh..

So for the moment memang riz ler artis yg aku minat..harap2 minat aku nih tak luntur ler..tapi biasanya aku kalu dah minat kat org tuh aku setia punya..heheh..

So Riz there's a lot of things that I like about you..yg penting..aku suka mata ko yg seksi tuhhh..huhuh..dun wori uols..riz nih taraf adik aku je..memandangkan aku nih takde adik..aku amek dia jadi adik aku jelah..heheh..wpun tuan punya badan tak tau tak kisah ler.. wpun dlm berhadek2 nih ada gak ayat2 merembes kat porem..muahaha..tapiiii itu merapu meraban je..

Pastu aku suka keramahan dia..eh..camner lak aku tau dia nih ramah..penah jumpa ke..muahaha..aku suka suara dia..aku suka gaya dia..aaahhh senang citer aku sukaaaa lah diaaaaa tu..muahaha..tapi aku bukan peminat membabi buta tau..aku still kutuk2 dia kalu dia pakai baju yg aku tak suka ke..heheh..

So riz..if you happen to read this (berangan gitew)..harap2 ko kekalkan sifat ko yg membuatkan peminat ko sukakan ko tuh..jgn lupa diri okke..we as fans will always support u okke..

Of Being a Pepari

Okke..apekemenda pepari nih..muahaha..

Well..pepari nih is a bunch of people yg bertenggek kat forum cari and bertukar-tukar pandangan pasal org yg sama (waaahh..ayat)saper tuhh..yes..u guess it..rizzzzz..heheh..setakat nih ramai dpd pepari nih tak penah jumpa pun tapi ada gak yg dah kenal memasing..

Aku mula2 join pepari nih lepas habis AF6..masa tuh aku cam mati kutu sbb macam ada something missing je..pastu singgah2 kat porem tuh seperti biasa baca gossip2 pastu termasuk lak board af..pastu camner ntah rasa mcm seronok lak baca posting dia org pastu rasa mcm nak join le pulak..ditambah plk masa tuh aku tgh ada krisis sket so tgh cari tempat nak relieve tension..

Pastu terpaksa ler menregister diri kat porem tuh..slama nih bertahun2 aku jadi SR kat board gossip tuh tapi takde rasa nak join2 dia org..heheh..minat punya pasal kannnn..

And then I got to know ramai dpd pepari nihh..ada yg dari Brunei, Penang, Perak, Pahang, Kolumpo sudah tentu dan byk tempat lagi..and i have to say I betul2 enjoy my time with them kat porem tuh..kalu ada masalah sket kalu lepak sana mesti terus lupa segala masalah..pastu bole tgk gambo2 hensem riz..muuahaha..pastu bole ngutuk sesama sendiri..heheh..

I must stay ini pengalaman baru yg mmg menyeronokkan..walau apa yg terjadi pasnih..tak tau le kan..we never know what will happen after this..maybe lepas nih sorang2 menghilang dari porem tuh..i have to say i really appreciate the experience..kdg rasa rapat sgt dgn mereka..wpun tak penah jumpa kann..and aku selalu merapu meraban kat sana tak kisah ler psl riz ke apa..yg pasti kalu pasal riz tuh mmg menda2 yg tak penah aku cakap kat org lain di luar sana..muahaha..nak mampussss...

So to all my pepari friends..thank you for the friendship..i really appreciate it..kdg2 kan aku rasa aku lebih menghargai korang lagi dari riz sendiri..muahaha..bole gitew..lappppp u guyssssss..

SENARAI 'PEPARIans'
000 - RIZ
001 - adieha
002 - komPANGG!!!
003 - britney_sapiah
004 - Maya2020
005 - sweetmm
006 - miss_qistina
007 - myralupilato
008 - HeavenLeigh
009 - sarahriz
010 - BeeBuzz
011 - ajami
012 - aiwa9
013 - shanew3stgalz
014 - Hanee
015 - renee
016 - wordlife
017 - fantasy_gurl
018 - audioslavefan
019 - soulfly
020 - shoryu
021 - smcjt70
022 - addya
023 - orglama
024 - ugly_duckling
025 - syabee
026 - watachiwa
027 - eye_of_ophelia
028 - juanaperez
029 - gepren
030 - AiZatHazWani
031 - fredbok87
032 - WoNbinGf
033 - hezzach
034 - m8
035 - rinie87
036 - mrs_teratai
037 - Herlina
038 - miss_match
039 - adsweet
040 - posh76
041 - darin
042 - walkstar
043 - luv_boril
044 - archilless
045 - seri_wan
046 - jayjazz
047 - ayushuhada04
048 - t10k
049 - alyssasarah
050 - Diamondy
051 - tqida80
052 - ratubayu
053 - jaja_95103
054 - hilmi henney
055 - ahtzue
056 - noryla
057 - silverose
058 - mira
059 - fab5
060 - cleopatra
061 - ENT
062 - lanalara
063 - cikgu_murni
064 - babyorange
065 - aurediajoy
066 - carrie_connie
067 - boti
068 - CikWaa
069 - Fazeel
070 - katabatik
071 - naj13
072 - kojek
073 - sweet_charcoals
074 - shashalicious
075 - damia76
076 - heartnsoul
077 - su77
078 - cikinto
079 - farah_fanz
080 - wani_ezryl
081 - pengkid
082 - Labeaute
083 - sinularia
084 - Waa Nee
085 - akakmanis
086 - inun
087 - juliazafri
088 - qila
089 - Mie
090 - illie85
091 -missgirl
092 - man1994
093 - akupunyepasal
094 - hironakamura76
095 - syafalicious
096 - miss_manja
097 - kak_ana63
098 - ayugiler
099 - btho
100 - lady13
101 - et_n
102 - mstalk
103 - caricom2006
104 - hantamal
105 - miss_anne
106 - S3Myx
107 - Dinah245
108 - lake
109 - abekawa
110 - misz aririza
111 - hidegulz
112 - mimi23
114 - rotigebu
115 - fahima80
116 - PrincessRiz
117 - dash78
118 - AuntieVogue
119 - muzlia
120 - rizna
121 - nuraya
122 - ophelia
123 - auntysms
124 - sheezels2308
125 - pikacun
126 - kimiola
127 - underwoodrockz
128 - ariz

Of Being one of the Angels

Penat ler pulak post panjang2 nih..sori ek angels..aku cam tak larat lak nak tulis pjg2 nih..so I'll make it short and sweet..heheh..mampu ke aku tulis pendek2 nih..

Lepas aku join pepari nih aku join pulak Riz's Angels..heheh..slalu masuk situ and lepak kat cb dia org..dia org nih pun happening..and mmg dia org nih le yg slalu wat gathering n tolong2 riz kalu berkaitan..pastu angels nih slalu pegi tgk riz wat persembahan kat mana2..pastu dia org tepek gambo n vc kat situ..dia org nih mmg sporting giler..so boleh ler aku menjamu mata kat situ..heheh..

And yg paling bestnya..riz selalu gak masuk sana and chatting2 kat cb..aku sempat ler chatting2 ngan dia wpun lately aku slalu terlepas..heheh..yg pasti kalu dia ada chatting2 slalunya dia terlepas pandang aku nihhh..muahaha..maybe sbb aku byk senyap dari bertanya kot..pastu tanya lak soklan yg tak rock..maner dia nak nampak kannn..heheh..tapi tak kisah ler..dia dah ada chatting2 pun dah hepi giler..overnyeeee..

Ok ler..rasa cam nak tulis lagi psl Angels nih tapi dah tak larat dah uols..so i think that's it..fuhhhh..penatnyaaaaa..heheh..malas ler aku nak baca balik n edit2 nih..so hentam jelahhhhh..

Country Music

2008-10-21T23:57:00.006+08:00

Malam nih sebenarnya aku malas nak post apa2 tapi ntah mcm mana tak mengantuk ler pulak..ishhh..

So since I have nothing to do..why not merapu meraban jap kat sini..heheh..

Finally I'm back to normal after only hearing riz's songs lepas AF6 habis..over gitew..heheh..aku dah pasang balik CD lain dlm keta aku and skrg tengah ulang dengar lagu Dixie Chicks "Not Ready to Make Nice"..

Aku mula2 discovered them masa tgk Grammy Award arituh..and they were simply amazing!!!I was mesmerized by their performance and that was a record itself since it was the first time I've heard the song..of course I've heard of them before but being not much of a country music fan, I just didn't bother to listen to their music.. but I must say they vowed me ever since..here's the clip of the song..jom karaoke!

DIXIE CHICKS

Not Ready To Make Nice

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

I'm through with doubt
There's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price
And I'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can't you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don't mind sayin'
It's a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Sayin' that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

Another group that I'm so into at the moment is Rascall Flatts..I've heard of them first in American Idol I think..but as with Dixie Chicks I just couldn't be bothered..muahaha..but ntah macam mana boleh tersangkut dengar their songs and I've being a fan ever since..here's the songs that I love:

RASCAL FLATTS

What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

RASCAL FLATTS

Bless The Broken Road

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

[Chorus:]
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

[Chorus:]
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Now I'm just rollin' home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you

So what do you think? Aren't they simply amazing?

CS prize giving ceremony n dinner

2008-10-20T22:53:00.007+08:00

Smlm aku terlibat ngan prize giving ceremony for CS..bhgian sambutan n protokol..jadi kul 6pm aku dah kuar rumah..sampai je semua ahkak2 opis aku yg terlibat sama semua dah ada..

Pastu kitorg sempat tgk rehearsal..pastu cucuk2 bunga manggar and then aku kena mekap n pakaikan costume org yg nak menyambut menteri tuh..muahaha..tak penah2 aku buat keja nih..hentam jelah..

Lepas siap cantik jugak keja keras tangan aku..heheh..

Pastukan mulalah bertaburan sekuntum demi sekuntum bebunga plastik kat sanggul sorang budak yg aku mekapkan nih atas tangga masa kitorang nak turun pegi ambik bunga manggar tuh..wakakaka..kan aku dah kata..serius aku memang nak tergelak dah masa tuh tapi control sebab dewan dah penuh masa tuh..hahaha

Pastu VIP pun sampai..seb baek sempat mekap2 bebudak tuh..punyalah berpeluh sampai habis cair mekap aku hoccay..heheh..pastu bila event tuh start best jugak lah..
actually menda nih macam dinner je..pas makan2 tuh baru start umum2 pemenang and then pemenang buat persembahan..masa tuh dewan senyap sunyi..best giler persembahan dia org..tabikkk bebbbbb..

Kat kul 11pm habis n aku pun ciao ler..best pulak rasa buat keja2 mcm nih..

Testing again

2008-10-19T23:50:00.007+08:00

credit to heartnsoul..lappp u hearttt...

heheh..pengsan sekejap tgk vc nih..tenkiu, tenkiu heart dearie..

I simply lurveeeee this clip..

Thx qis 4 the tips..as you can see, org yg buta IT nih finally know how to tepek vcs from youtube..heheh

You can watch the rest of the vcs here at http://www.youtube.com/user/heartsnsoul..my dear friend at pepari..

Menciiikkkkkkkk

2008-10-18T20:55:00.003+08:00

Well obviously as the title suggests I'm not in a good mood..why is it the superiors are always full of @#$%*! Memang sah tahun nih tahun yg malang bagi aku..for sure memang aku tak boleh tukar next year and because I dare to ask for transfer which by the way is my right anyway, the superiors already assigned me the task which was the reason why I asked for transfer in the first place..well..kalu betul ler kononnya takde org capable of doing my job, tahun depan aku malas dah nak buat rajin..don't get me wrong..I'll do my job the best I can cuma keja2 extra tuh aku dah malas ler..konon nak buat rajin sampai orang tak nak lepaskan kita apa kes... dahlah tambah macam2 lagi sebab aku berani mintak tukar..apa tuh..itu hak aku sebagai pekerja ler..cilakak punya olangg...uwaaaaa..mencikkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

Testing

2008-10-17T22:23:00.008+08:00

Nak cuba upload gambo kat sini..smlm aku cuba tepek youtube kat sini tak jadi..muahaha..so arinih nak cuba tepek gambo lak..tgk jadi tak..heheh..

emmm..nak tepek gambo apa ek..sat i try okke..

muahaha..jadi ekk..baru nampak icon image ngan video kat atas tuh..apsal aku blur sgt smlm ek..mesti sbb smlm aku post dah lewat..

ok now I'll try tepekking video ok..here goes..

credit to riachannel

wahh jadi ke..

eh camner ek nak tepek youtube..yuhuuu pepari..ajarle i..heheh..maner ada org kan..as far as I know takde sorang pun tau i dah ada blog except for qis..heheh

sat I'll try tepek lagi a few pics of my fav singer..

ok..i think that's enoughhhh..

Bits and Pieces

2008-10-17T01:48:00.010+08:00

Shopping

Today i tak nak dah sedih2..so decided to go shopping. Called up my friend and we decided to go to the new mall yg semua org mcm dah pegi kecuali kita je..heheh..so after maghrib bertolak ler kita..jauh jugak tempat tuh..dlm 37km..sampai je tgk besarlah jugak shopping mall tuh esp for my kampung yg tak pernah ada kedai sebesar itu..

I bought a nightie and a sweater for myself and then later we had our dinner at secret recipe..and then beli kek kat situ..lamanya aku tak merasa kek secret recipe nih, almaklumlah kat tempat aku mana ler ada kek canggih2 nih..heheh..i chose marble cheese cake..dlm sekelip mata that slice of cake habis..muahaha..eh bukan baru 2-3 hari lepas aku nak diet katanya..heheh..as usual diet aku hilang di angin lalu..biasalah aku..

And then we planned to go to kay el 2 minggu lagi..yeahhhh..lamanya aku tak pegi kolumpo..harap2 bila kat sana aku tak jadi macam rusa masuk bandar lak..heheh..

Lagu Jiwang

I simply love ballad or dalam erti kata lain lagu jiwang or lagu tangkap leleh...so mlm nih I decided to tepek the lyrics of my favourite jiwang songs..lagu2 mcm nih kdg2 boleh membuatkan I tangkap syahdu..wahhhh over gitu..jommm nyanyi sama2..

Toni Braxton » Unbreak My Heart

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The night are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart

Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss that pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry that tears
I cried so many, many nights
Un-break my

Un-break my heart
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on....

the next song is also by tony braxton

HOW COULD AN ANGEL BREAK MY HEART (Toni Braxton)

I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

I heard here face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in May
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name
I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesn't make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch may falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wish our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

Oh my soul is dying, it's crying
I'm trying to understand
Please help me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

Ngantuk le pulak..so dua lagu je dulu..actually wanted to upload vc from youtube tapi buat2 tak jadi le pulak..muahaha..

After The Rain

2008-10-15T19:38:00.004+08:00

On the day someone dear to me died I finally decided to have a blog.

It's more of a record so that I’ll remember the day you left us..how when we heard the news in the morning suddenly it began to rain and I felt drainless..weightless..I was prepared for the worst ever since I got the bad news last night but it was still a shock..maybe because it happened so fast..when kak H informed me last night that you only had 3 more days to live I was in denial..no..please don’t let it happen to S..let a miracle happens..please..please oh please..surely this only happens in movies but not to us..not to S please..

Restless, I then decided to join my pepari friends and angels just to lighten up my mood..and I was right..our silly ramblings always cheer me up everytime..but still

And early this morning I got the news that you left us..before I even managed to see you at the hospital..It seemed Allah loves you more..

Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh Allahyarham..Amin.