Soooo why suddenly your problem IS my problem? So you cannot have any worries unlike us normal people? So you have to burden someone else because of your inability in handling anything you consider a problem? I have enough on my plate as it is without you making it worse. Since when I have to deal with all your shit. I'm this close to slapping you...and I'm never a violent person. And I'm telling you if you have my life right now you'll be a basketcase by now...God give me strength from all the people who have it easy in life and just go berserk when life is not all a bed of roses...
I know that I haven't been blogging for quite some time now and when I did blog, it's all about Adam Lambert...but I feel the need to write today, straight from the heart and I won't bother to edit this as usual...I mean let's face it...Do I have any readers now? What cyber friends that I have now all gone and it's not through the fault of anyone but mine alone. Yeah... bad grammar and all but that is not important enough for now.
I blog to escape from the real world which has always been full of crap but lately just when I thought life could not get any worse, it seemed that it has. I'm not the one to cry river of tears when life gets me down and I know some has it tougher than me...and is there anyone who doesn't have any problem anyway? And I'm not saying that my problems are bigger than yours though they sure feel like that sometimes but THEY ARE MY PROBLEMS so they take precedence from anyone else here.
And so I escape by living in bubbles, by idolizing Adam and Riz before this. I would flail if I heard any exciting news about Adam and if I know he's happy then I'm happy. I know some wouldn't understand this and would think I'm nuts and I'm not justifying my behaviour here. It's certainly not the entitlement that Adam talked about some of his fans... I hardly send him any twits and I hardly talk about him on any of the US forums that I lurk.
But lately I feel all the weight and pain of life upon me. Sometimes I feel like going mad from all these and all my Adamizing doesn't seem to help either. Please God give me strength...
Just reread my last post. Wow, how cliche was that! Sorry guys. Seemed that my writing is becoming more and more cliche everyday! So basically my Adamazing does not only ruin my life and turns me into a recluse but also ruins my blog...heheh...See Adam what you have done...but I still love you anyway...muahaha...
Can this day get any worse? Not sure how much I can take anymore before I completely go bananas! Even now I'm still deep in this shit! Sheesh..Funny what people will do to save their own skin...Thank God for Adam! At least I can forget all this stupidity for a while by having my Adam fix. Lame isn't it...
I'm so digging all these ballads covered by Adam. He really touched me with his interpretation...sigh*...erkkk...did I tell you how much I love Adam? Muahaha...
Adam's cover of Onerepublic's Come Home
[Verse 1] Hello world Hope you're listening Forgive me if I`m young For speaking out of turn There`s someone I`ve been missing I think that they could be The better half of me They`re in their own place trying to make it right But I`m tired of justifying So i say you`ll..
[Chorus] Come home Come home Cause I`ve been waiting for you For so long For so long And right now there's a war between the vanities But all i see is you and me The fight for you is all I`ve ever known So come home Oooh
[Verse 2] I get lost in the beauty Of everything i see The world ain`t as half as bad As they paint it to be If all the sons If all the daughters Stopped to take it in Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin It might start now..Yeahh Well maybe I`m just dreaming out loud Until then Come home Come home Cause I`ve been waiting for you For so long For so long And right now there's a war between the vanities But all i see is you and me The fight for you is all I`ve ever known Ever known So come home Oooh
[Interlude] Everything i can`t be Is everything you should be And that`s why i need you here Everything i can`t be Is everything you should be And that`s why i need you here So hear this now
[Chorus} Come home Come home Cause I`ve been waiting for you For so long For so long And right now there's a war between the vanities But all i see is you and me The fight for you is all I`ve ever known Ever known So come home Come home
Five For Fighting's I Just Love You
Lonely, yeah that's the word I leave my heart when I leave her The days go on forever and the nights do too
One evening out on the road A half a world away from home I thought she was sleeping When the call came through
I said, Darling, it's late, is everything ok Silence took over the room Til she said
I... I just Love You I Don't Know Why, I Just Do When are you coming home I'm coming home soon And I just love you too
Lonely lets me be For a while she sets me free I close my eyes and I dream of her
She's lost in my arms Her head on my heart And softly she whispers the words
I...I just Love You I Don't Know Why, I Just Do When are you coming home I'm coming home soon And I just love you too
I'll never stop being amazed How my 4-year old girl knows exactly what to say
I, I just Love You I Don't Know Why, I Just Do When are you coming home I'm coming home soon Cause I just love you too
I Can't Make You Love Me
I Can't Make You Love Me
Turn Down The Light Turn down the bed Turn down these voices inside my head Lay down with me Tell me no lies Just hold me close Don't patronise Don't patronise
'Cause i can't make you love me if you don't You can't make your heart feel something that it won't Here in the dark in these final hours I will lay down my heart And i feel the power But you won't, no you won't
'Cause i can't make you love me if you don't I'll close my eyes, then i won't see The love you don't feel when you're holding me Mornin' will come and i'll do what's right Just give me till then to give up this fight And i will give up this fight
'Cause i can't make you love me if you don't You can't make your heart feel something that it won't Here in the dark in these final hours I will lay down my heart And i feel the power But you won't, no you won't 'Cause i can't make you love me if you don't
Muahahaha...I'm telling y'aaalll, life as Adam Lambert's fanatic is sure exhausting! I hardly can keep up with all the news and stuff about the fantastic Adam Lambert. Woooo...did I just use the word fantastic? Corny right? Heh...Am i obsessed? Possessed? Heheh...whatever...I'm enjoying the ride now but I sure am losing sleep over this obsession of mine...oh well...
