Bosan

The title says it all...tetiba rasa boring giler...nothing on tv and don't feel like doing anything else...not that I watch tv all that much but when I do feel like it, there's nothing interesting to watch it seems...bosaaaaaannnn...

Perasaan meluap2 sekarang nak beli handset baru. Been using the same phone more than three years now... And then I need a new handbag/purse but dah berapa lama cari takde yang berkenan. Maybe I need to do some online shopping? Betapa tak aktifnya hidup sekarang ni kan, paying bills online, beli barang online, tengok tv online...I tried not to buy those online takut teraddicted kan langsung tak keluar rumah ler jawabnya...I do get my books online since I can't get them here but that's it...

And have to buy kain baju raya since my tailor has been asking about it...nanti dia memang tak nak terima dah...nasib baik I have more than enough shoes so tak terasa nak beli kasut baru...yang ada ni pun tak terpakai pun, heheh...Oh yeah need to buy some fragrance sebab yang ada nih dah nak habis...

Hishhhh banyak betul menda nak beli tapi duitnya tadak...muahaha...maybe I'll just buy things that I really, really need but gotta restrain myself on certain things like the portable HD that I've been thinking of buying? Or a new watch? Or the new Canon camera? Hiks...

Hmmm maybe I need to change the title of this post to Things That I Want To Buy But Couldn't? Muahaha...

Tenkiuuuuuuuuuuuuu

This post is dedicated to my fans...eh I mean my readers (readers ke reader...heh) yg masih lagi setia and sanggup baca yesterday's posting...i lap u guysssss so much :) Sempena dengan itu, ai tujukan lagu ni khas buat korang...

Laaa...kensel sbb youtube lembap yg amatz...nak copy video embed code macam menanti buah yg tak gugur2...heheh betul tak perumpaan ni...tapi ok ler...uols mesti bole guess vc sapa I nak tepek kat sini...kan muntah ijau lakkk...ekekke...so terimalah poem yg ntah sapa tulis ni...ai copy paste sajorkkkk...

Of Continuing With This Blog

Feeling so blue lately...what with all my cats suffering from a virus of some sort...yes, in my later years I'm turning into a crazy cat lady..lol..and last week I was so drained of energy and strength and really had to force myself to act like everything is alright...

*am watching AF8 finale (which seemed to be on repeats 24/7 on @15...lol...) while writing this. The winner, Shahir, although seemed to lack something while performing, has the wow factor, I guess...gosh I'm so late into the game...but he certainly deserves this win.

I know that by now this blog won't have any readers left and I'm not blaming anyone. This has been a tough year for me so far, personal wise, and I only want to keep my cool and my sanity through this difficult time...I can be quite emotional, sometimes...lol...

I'm thinking of creating a new blog for a new me but decided to just continue with this blog...*eiiii si adlin ramli ni is so irritating...oppps sorry...heheh

Eh got to stop to do some errands...

Ehhh Lupa Ada Blog

Hadoiiiii....lama giler tak hapdet blog...lately mood nak menggoreng sepatah dua kata nih memang takde...think I really, really need to force myself to write even just a few words...sayang jugak blog nih walaupun semua peminat dah lari...I'll be back later edit post nih malam nih...sekarang ada keja sket

My Life Has Fallen Apart

I will always remember this day as the day when the light has gone out of my life...

Last Post before the Coming New Year Kekdahnyer

I'm sooo not looking forward to the New Year...tak mampu menerima kenyataan diri ini semakin matang heh...kan kalu teringat bole depressed gitew...so untuk mengelakkan tekanan apa kata kita enjoy video mak hadam ni (ai dah ingat2 lupa cara nak tepek youtube nih, jap cuba kita try test ekkkkk...



Eh jadi rupanyaaaaa...video yg menunjukkan keayuan adam nihhh...eh, i mean kemachoan adam nih dah lama jugak keluar tapi memandangkan peminat setia adam nih (sapa tuh? hiks...) bukanlah orang yang teramat rajin menghapdet blog dia, maka adam terpaksa ler menunggu giliran seperti orang kebanyakan juga...heh...

So banyak ler menda yg berlaku this past month, jap nak recall balik... teman seperjuangan ai yg duk kat kolumpo tu ada tolong belikan CD mak hadam kat ai, pastu ada personal problem yg ai buat2 lupa, shopping kat kolumpo beli handbag and kasut sempena tahun baru, singgah2 kedai mas kat kuantan beli jongkong mas ...eh takde ler beli jongkong...giler ke haper...mana ada duit...lainlah kalu jadi bini no 4 bung mokhtar...muahahaha...aper lagi ek...oh yer after so many years of not going to the theater, I finally caved in and went to watch the movie 2012 just for mak hadam tapi tak sanggup tunggu citer tuh habis... uols, citer nih tersangatlah boring and lembap...so, sorry adam, even for you I cannot wait until the it ends...

Emmm malas ler pulak tetiba...so kita stop sini dulu ekkkkk...

Mayday Mayday

Adeh...jenuh nak sign in taw...the reason is i simply terforget my password uols...bole gitew? muahahaha...so confirm ler dah berzaman tuan blog nih tak masuk blog dia sendiri. Ntah, kenapa yer dia malas sangat nak hapdet blog sendiri...i pun tak tawww...hiks...

So much has happened since the last time I blogged... can't believe that this Monday Adam Lambert will be on American Music Awards... I was waiting forever for this to happen and of course, his album gonna drop on Tuesday...but me as his diehard fan cannot beli album dia bole? Tak tau ler bila CD dia sampai kat Msia nih...ntah2 kena banned pun tak tawww...because of his gayness uols...yer...adam nih sorang yang riang ria uols...get it? happy and gay? muahahaha...

Last week was hectic and full of madness I guess...the madness was all on my side of course...muahaha...so, as a result I couldn't quite keep up with all the news on Adam Lambert...yeah, that's like the most important agenda for me right now...heheh...and on that note, i tetiba tak tau nak tulis apa dah kat sini...tadi kan main mencurah2 idea...maybe it's something to do with my cat having berak atas enjin kereta tadi and I spend an hour to clean it all up and even now it still smells somewhat like shit...hishhhh..kalu ingat nak wallop jer kucing tuh but then my cats know how much I love them and tend to ambik kesempatan atas kebaikan tuan dia nihhhh...baik ke...hehehhh...kinzir punya kucingggggggg!!!!

Ooopssss...

Guys, sorry about the rants last night...

Kekadang tuh i lupa ingatan maka terjadi ler kisah2 menggerunkan macam semalam...heheh..

To gurgurl, muz and emily, don't worry guys, mak masih normal lagi...muahaha..

Anywaysss, here's some funny pics to enlighten the day...i certainly need theseeeeee in my life right now...lol..

Welcome to the Real World

Soooo why suddenly your problem IS my problem? So you cannot have any worries unlike us normal people? So you have to burden someone else because of your inability in handling anything you consider a problem? I have enough on my plate as it is without you making it worse. Since when I have to deal with all your shit. I'm this close to slapping you...and I'm never a violent person. And I'm telling you if you have my life right now you'll be a basketcase by now...God give me strength from all the people who have it easy in life and just go berserk when life is not all a bed of roses...

Rain, rain go away, come again some other day...

I know that I haven't been blogging for quite some time now and when I did blog, it's all about Adam Lambert...but I feel the need to write today, straight from the heart and I won't bother to edit this as usual...I mean let's face it...Do I have any readers now? What cyber friends that I have now all gone and it's not through the fault of anyone but mine alone. Yeah... bad grammar and all but that is not important enough for now.

I blog to escape from the real world which has always been full of crap but lately just when I thought life could not get any worse, it seemed that it has. I'm not the one to cry river of tears when life gets me down and I know some has it tougher than me...and is there anyone who doesn't have any problem anyway? And I'm not saying that my problems are bigger than yours though they sure feel like that sometimes but THEY ARE MY PROBLEMS so they take precedence from anyone else here.

And so I escape by living in bubbles, by idolizing Adam and Riz before this. I would flail if I heard any exciting news about Adam and if I know he's happy then I'm happy. I know some wouldn't understand this and would think I'm nuts and I'm not justifying my behaviour here. It's certainly not the entitlement that Adam talked about some of his fans... I hardly send him any twits and I hardly talk about him on any of the US forums that I lurk.

But lately I feel all the weight and pain of life upon me. Sometimes I feel like going mad from all these and all my Adamizing doesn't seem to help either. Please God give me strength...