Reunion ler sangat

So malam ni ada reunion kawan2 lama sekolah rendah dulu. And being anti-social like always, I just cannot relate to these kinds of events. Lagipun sekolah zaman Jepun dulu, sapa ler boleh ingat member2 lama tu...wah macam berlagak gitew...but seriously, I'm so not into these kinds of gathering. But sebab nak mengambil hati kawan yg organize this event, kang merajuk tak pasal2 and cakap I sombong ke apa...terpaksalah tunjuk muka. I memang takde niat langsung pun nak pegi but tiba2 dalam pukul 8.40pm dapat call from kawan lama yang paksa suruh pergi so I had no choice terpaksa ler pegi dalam keadaan terpaksa.

And sampai kat sana I was in the car like 3 minutes forcing myself to get out of the car sebab ramai sangat orang kat depan tu...:( And memang tadi I felt so small and wish I could just disappear bila semua sibuk tanya about spouse semua...and one more thing semua orang cakap I nampak lain sangat, which is the polite way of saying wah gemuknya ko, macam dipam2...uwaaaaa...so I have no choice but to makan jusmate after this...

The moral of the story: jangan sibuk nak pegi gathering2 macam ni kalu badan dah naik macam belon and when you don't want to hear all the usual questions...

I will not forgive nor will I forget

Nampaknya macam trend pulak kan...biler sakit hati ke, sedih ke, baru sibuk nak update blog luahkan apa yang terpendam kekdahnyer...masalahnya I memang tak ingat I ada blog masa tengah happy, bila sedih haaaa baru teringat eh eh ada blog rupanya...

So this week berlakulah perkara yang betul2 menguji kesabaran dan menyeksa batin...it has been a few days but I'm so mad that this stupid thing made me lose my sleep and made shed a few tears...not a few, but berbaldi2 dah...and it made me realise how some people memang penuh dengan kebiadapan dan kebinatangan...

Don't think I will ever recover...here's hoping that the healing will begin so that I can get on with my life...

I Can't Even...

SOAKED

Soaked to the bone
Sink like a stone
Walk home alone
It's not the first time
It's not the worst crime
Your soul will be OK

And you've had enough
Searching for love
And you miss the touch
Of someone new

Burned by your dreams
It's never how it seems
Cold crushed esteem
Take shelter
And hide forever
Your soul will be OK

And you've had enough
Searching for love
And you miss the touch
Of someone new

And you've had enough
Searching for love
And you miss the touch
Of someone new

Soaked to the bone
Sink like a stone
I will take you home
It's not the first time
It's not the worst crime
Our souls will be OK

Bosan

The title says it all...tetiba rasa boring giler...nothing on tv and don't feel like doing anything else...not that I watch tv all that much but when I do feel like it, there's nothing interesting to watch it seems...bosaaaaaannnn...

Perasaan meluap2 sekarang nak beli handset baru. Been using the same phone more than three years now... And then I need a new handbag/purse but dah berapa lama cari takde yang berkenan. Maybe I need to do some online shopping? Betapa tak aktifnya hidup sekarang ni kan, paying bills online, beli barang online, tengok tv online...I tried not to buy those online takut teraddicted kan langsung tak keluar rumah ler jawabnya...I do get my books online since I can't get them here but that's it...

And have to buy kain baju raya since my tailor has been asking about it...nanti dia memang tak nak terima dah...nasib baik I have more than enough shoes so tak terasa nak beli kasut baru...yang ada ni pun tak terpakai pun, heheh...Oh yeah need to buy some fragrance sebab yang ada nih dah nak habis...

Hishhhh banyak betul menda nak beli tapi duitnya tadak...muahaha...maybe I'll just buy things that I really, really need but gotta restrain myself on certain things like the portable HD that I've been thinking of buying? Or a new watch? Or the new Canon camera? Hiks...

Hmmm maybe I need to change the title of this post to Things That I Want To Buy But Couldn't? Muahaha...

Tenkiuuuuuuuuuuuuu

This post is dedicated to my fans...eh I mean my readers (readers ke reader...heh) yg masih lagi setia and sanggup baca yesterday's posting...i lap u guysssss so much :) Sempena dengan itu, ai tujukan lagu ni khas buat korang...

Laaa...kensel sbb youtube lembap yg amatz...nak copy video embed code macam menanti buah yg tak gugur2...heheh betul tak perumpaan ni...tapi ok ler...uols mesti bole guess vc sapa I nak tepek kat sini...kan muntah ijau lakkk...ekekke...so terimalah poem yg ntah sapa tulis ni...ai copy paste sajorkkkk...

Of Continuing With This Blog

Feeling so blue lately...what with all my cats suffering from a virus of some sort...yes, in my later years I'm turning into a crazy cat lady..lol..and last week I was so drained of energy and strength and really had to force myself to act like everything is alright...

*am watching AF8 finale (which seemed to be on repeats 24/7 on @15...lol...) while writing this. The winner, Shahir, although seemed to lack something while performing, has the wow factor, I guess...gosh I'm so late into the game...but he certainly deserves this win.

I know that by now this blog won't have any readers left and I'm not blaming anyone. This has been a tough year for me so far, personal wise, and I only want to keep my cool and my sanity through this difficult time...I can be quite emotional, sometimes...lol...

I'm thinking of creating a new blog for a new me but decided to just continue with this blog...*eiiii si adlin ramli ni is so irritating...oppps sorry...heheh

Eh got to stop to do some errands...

Ehhh Lupa Ada Blog

Hadoiiiii....lama giler tak hapdet blog...lately mood nak menggoreng sepatah dua kata nih memang takde...think I really, really need to force myself to write even just a few words...sayang jugak blog nih walaupun semua peminat dah lari...I'll be back later edit post nih malam nih...sekarang ada keja sket

My Life Has Fallen Apart

I will always remember this day as the day when the light has gone out of my life...

Last Post before the Coming New Year Kekdahnyer

I'm sooo not looking forward to the New Year...tak mampu menerima kenyataan diri ini semakin matang heh...kan kalu teringat bole depressed gitew...so untuk mengelakkan tekanan apa kata kita enjoy video mak hadam ni (ai dah ingat2 lupa cara nak tepek youtube nih, jap cuba kita try test ekkkkk...



Eh jadi rupanyaaaaa...video yg menunjukkan keayuan adam nihhh...eh, i mean kemachoan adam nih dah lama jugak keluar tapi memandangkan peminat setia adam nih (sapa tuh? hiks...) bukanlah orang yang teramat rajin menghapdet blog dia, maka adam terpaksa ler menunggu giliran seperti orang kebanyakan juga...heh...

So banyak ler menda yg berlaku this past month, jap nak recall balik... teman seperjuangan ai yg duk kat kolumpo tu ada tolong belikan CD mak hadam kat ai, pastu ada personal problem yg ai buat2 lupa, shopping kat kolumpo beli handbag and kasut sempena tahun baru, singgah2 kedai mas kat kuantan beli jongkong mas ...eh takde ler beli jongkong...giler ke haper...mana ada duit...lainlah kalu jadi bini no 4 bung mokhtar...muahahaha...aper lagi ek...oh yer after so many years of not going to the theater, I finally caved in and went to watch the movie 2012 just for mak hadam tapi tak sanggup tunggu citer tuh habis... uols, citer nih tersangatlah boring and lembap...so, sorry adam, even for you I cannot wait until the it ends...

Emmm malas ler pulak tetiba...so kita stop sini dulu ekkkkk...

Mayday Mayday

Adeh...jenuh nak sign in taw...the reason is i simply terforget my password uols...bole gitew? muahahaha...so confirm ler dah berzaman tuan blog nih tak masuk blog dia sendiri. Ntah, kenapa yer dia malas sangat nak hapdet blog sendiri...i pun tak tawww...hiks...

So much has happened since the last time I blogged... can't believe that this Monday Adam Lambert will be on American Music Awards... I was waiting forever for this to happen and of course, his album gonna drop on Tuesday...but me as his diehard fan cannot beli album dia bole? Tak tau ler bila CD dia sampai kat Msia nih...ntah2 kena banned pun tak tawww...because of his gayness uols...yer...adam nih sorang yang riang ria uols...get it? happy and gay? muahahaha...

Last week was hectic and full of madness I guess...the madness was all on my side of course...muahaha...so, as a result I couldn't quite keep up with all the news on Adam Lambert...yeah, that's like the most important agenda for me right now...heheh...and on that note, i tetiba tak tau nak tulis apa dah kat sini...tadi kan main mencurah2 idea...maybe it's something to do with my cat having berak atas enjin kereta tadi and I spend an hour to clean it all up and even now it still smells somewhat like shit...hishhhh..kalu ingat nak wallop jer kucing tuh but then my cats know how much I love them and tend to ambik kesempatan atas kebaikan tuan dia nihhhh...baik ke...hehehhh...kinzir punya kucingggggggg!!!!